Johnny's POV
I know, I know, I've been an asshole with her, I know how she feels, I feel the same, But, Its Lauren, she forced me to do that, and I know, once again, that, If I really loved her, I would have reffused, but, I didn't, that's why I feel guilty, this girl was my jackpot, and I broke her heart 4 times:
-one before to even know her,
-Second, in the Hospital.
Third, cheating on her with Nadia.
and finally
Fourth, now, while I chose my sister, before even thinking about her.
The problem is that I still care, about her love, her feelings, her heart, her look, her smile.
I just, still care about her.
Before all this, she told me she was going on ellen, which is cool, I opened the TV and watched the whole episode.
A few moments later:
My heart is stabed, I hurt her so much, I feel as guilty as Lauren felt when she tried to kill her.
I don't know many things, I don't know what to say.
I just grabbed my phone and sent the folowing message:
J- I heard Ellen, last night.
M- Forget me, I'm just, not worth it.
J- What do you mean "not worth it"? You're always worth it, and you're always going to be, its my mistake, I know what I did was wrong, but, I don't know, Lauren's my sister.
M- Yeah, yeah, and You were my Boyfriend.
J- You were so stupid to love me.
M-You were all I wanted.
J- But you deserved better
M- You were everything I wanted.
J-It couldn't be.
M- yes, it can, beacause, I still love you, but this is our love story, now, its all broken and ripped out.
J- Its not what you think.
M- I love you, we were unforgettable.
J- Yeah, but I hurt you, and I don't want to be forgived, I want to be forgotten, by you.
M-But, you can't really come up and say: Forget me.
J- I know you're hurt, but as I said forget me. I loved you, and I do lstill love you, because, I'm not the one who needs to forgive, I'm the one who needs to be forgiven.
M- Yeah, and I forgive you.
J- No, you're not you hate me. I know you do, you only say that because you want the happiness, but, I can tell you won't be happy, you'll only be dissapointed, about me an about you. You'll feel sad everyday, and at the end, you'll breakup, because, I hate to see you hurt, and I can see it when you are, so please, please do me a fovor, think, before to act.
-LinaXOXO
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i still want you
FanfictionIn which a teenager has to face life problems that never end.