Hey, I'm Mackenzie. Not the old Mackenzie, the new one.
Today, I woke up, and I remembered, his eyes color, the way he made me laught, smile, all before I remembered the details of his death.
I have an adorable 10 years old son called Liam that I love as much as I love myself. I said while looking at myself in the mirror, looking at pictures of me and John, until he came in my room, it was Liam:
M- Liam, hurry up, we're going to be late for the wedding.
L- I'm ready mom.
M- shoes? Come on sweety we don't wanna be late for the wedding.
We arrived. I'm a bridesmaid and Liam's the best man.
This was my bidesmaid dress:
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And this was Lauren's dress
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A little tear roll down my face, seeing her makes my think of johnny so much. But, what hurts me the most is that 5minutes ago she was panicking and saying:
"I don't know What i'm doing and there is no one here with me, no one here to tell me to quit or get me out of here, or help me. Because this was Johnny's Job and Johnny is dead."
L- You're thinking about dad, isn't it?
M-Yeah, you're father was a nice man, you know, your aunt and you now, you guys look like him so much.
Lauren got up, took a her glass and a spoon and made a little noise to get everyone's attention:
L- We have the opportunity to have the Mackenzie Ziegler, an amazing singer and she was my brother's wife, but, at the same time, she is my best friend, she's here to sing a song, it's a surprise for everyone, I don't know what song it is, but, hoping you'll like it. Mackenzie, go on.
I left Liam and went on stage:
M- This song is my story, with Johnny, my husband.
I started:
I found a love for me Darling, just dive right in and follow my lead Well, I found a girl, beautiful and sweet Oh, I never knew you were the someone waiting for me
'Cause we were just kids when we fell in love Not knowing what it was I will not give you up this time But darling, just kiss me slow Your heart is all I own And in your eyes you're holding mine
Baby, I'm dancing in the dark With you between my arms Barefoot on the grass Listening to our favourite song When you said you looked a mess I whispered underneath my breath But you heard it, Darling, you look perfect tonight
Well, I found a woman, stronger than anyone I know She shares my dreams, I hope that someday I'll share her home I found a love to carry more than just my secrets To carry love, to carry children of our own
We are still kids but we're so in love Fighting against all odds I know we'll be alright this time Darling, just hold my hand Be my girl, I'll be your man I see my future in your eyes
Baby, I'm dancing in the dark With you between my arms Barefoot on the grass Listening to our favourite song When I saw you in that dress Looking so beautiful I don't deserve this Darling, you look perfect tonight
Baby, I'm dancing in the dark With you between my arms Barefoot on the grass Listening to our favourite song I have faith in what I see Now I know I have met an angel in person And she looks perfect I don't deserve this You look perfect tonight
A little tear roll down, but, looking at everyone who's applauding, I noticed they were crying too. Lauren came on stage and hugged me.
If there is something I can tell you it would definitly be this:
Don't wait until its too late to tell someone how much you love, how much you care, because, when they're gone, you can screem, cry, shout, but, they won't hear you, not anymore. The hardest thing wasn't losing him, but it was learning to live without him.
I Love you so much johnny, I miss you, everyday, I think of you, and I hope you'll come back and that we'll live like a normal family, because, I'm not going to move on, I'm scared to, I'm also scared to know what really happened to you, I trully love you, and I always will.
I miss you so much, I mean we both do, we're doing great, but I know we would've been so much better if you would've been by our side for the rest of our lifes.
ILYSM
-Mackenzie Ziegler and Liam Orlando.
A/N sO, THIS IS THE END. Hope you liked it. I was asked to do a face reveal or to post a picture so there we go:
