Is it Really You? (a Josh Hutcherson Fanfiction)

Chapter 10: How to fix a Brokenheart

After sitting in my car for what seemed like ages I realized that this truly was getting nowhere. I had thought about Josh and scenarios on how to confront him over and over but am still sitting here without a clue in the world on what I'm going to do. I could a) go and find him myself which would take entirely to much effort or b) answer when he calls which is much harder than you would think. He's probably already given up on me by now anyways so what's the point? What's the point in any of this if he's just going to leave me?

No. I need to find him and solve things for myself, no more making assumptions or imagining the worst possible outcomes in life. It's time to fix things and bring my Josh back to me. I know that it seems silly to be taking things so seriously but when you love someone nothing else in the world seems to matter, you just want to be with them every minute of the day and they're constantly on your mind, without even trying. It's not like I want Josh out of my mind but honestly I couldn't get him out of my thoughts even if I wanted to!

I finally come to the conclusion that just sitting in the car or even driving to the airport isn't the best idea so I decide to get out and go think things over first. As I grab my keys and begin the walk to the side door of my house I hear a car pull up and immediately write it off as a mailman or Fed-Ex truck.

When I turned around though I was faced with something, well someone, that had me crying within seconds. His long strides to me became more like sprints as he rushed up and picked me up in a sweet yet needy hug. His arms gripped me as tight and loving as possible, not letting me go and showing how much he truly cared about me. As the tears began to stream down my face I looked up the slightest bit to just see his face while wrapping my arms and legs around my strong boyfriend. "Josh" I said, unable to process any other words at the moment or even talk from all the crying I was doing.

"I love you Claire. I love you so much princess and I would never hurt you. Just trust me and give me a chance... Please." His words made my stomach erupt in a fit of butterflies before feeling the rush of pink to my cheeks as I blushed and stared into his eyes. At that moment I knew that we were truly perfect and no one was going to take my Josh away from me. Not even that girl he was "with", whoever she is. I really should've paid attention to who she actually was, I don't even know her name. She was beautiful tho, her perfect brown hair was curled and styled as if she had been modeling that morning which would expalin the makeup that made her face seem gorgeous and impossobly perfect. I wanted to be jealous of her when everything in me told me that I wasn't good enough, even though Josh would never let me say that out loud. He would always hush me before I could even finish my sentence and tell me absolutely everything he loved about me making me question how he even sees those things in me when I never could. Of course I don't tell him that, I would only agree to not talk bad about myself again while we both know that I will fail to do so.

"Claire... What are you thinking about? Please don't tell me you're leaving me. I can't let you give up on me, not now, not yet." as I fazed back into reality my eyes shot up to see tears covering Josh's face and the beautiful hazel in his eyes dilated. My heart ached for him before remembering the girl he was with only days before and then I too began to cry. Struggling to free myself from Josh's grip was harder than I thought it would be but i fianlly managed to get my feet on the ground. His eyes were now lifeless as they stared straight down, looking into the pavement beneath our feet as if it would somehow take him away and free him from all the things that had happened recently. "J-Josh" I struggled to say while tears streamed down my face and I had to gasp for air.