josh
"i hate you!" you screamed as we fought for the last time.
it hurt. it hurt because i knew i was selfish to care about you so much, that i forgot to take care of myself too.
it hurt because i knew i was selfish, i knew i shouldn't have left you the way i did.
but when my mind was so clouded, and when our love had begun to fade, i didn't see any other way out.
i'm sorry.
i cared about you more than you think. i know you despise me right now. and you have the right to.
i'm sorry.
i loved every inch of your 'imperfect' body, apart from the sickness that had finally erupted in your damaged lungs.
i'm sorry that i fell. i fell so hard that my mind became unconscious. my body laid for hours on the cold pavement until the ambulance arrived.
but i'm alive, simon. you just can't hear me through my lifeless body laying on the hard surface of the hospital bed.
you think i'm gone, but i'm not.
i still love you.
YOU ARE READING
grey ; minizerk
Fanfictionyellow and white rests between his lips and he fills his lungs with grey. tw; there is a lot. don't read if you're sensitive about suicide or depressive thoughts.
