when we did get home,
she admitted it.she cheated.
again.
what's worse is
they did it in his car during their lunch break.i feel sick.
my chest hurts.
there's no way i'd break up with her.
i love her too much.
she said she'd never do it again.
that i should give her a chance.
she grabs onto my arm as i try to leave.
and
i didn't mean to
i really really didn't mean to
but
i hit her again.this time, i didn't even try to comfort her. without a word, i leave while she lay on the floor - weeping. i couldn't bear to see her writhing in agony again. i was a coward.
a selfish, disgusting coward.when i came home, a few drinks down me, i catch seyeon bandaging the wounds. i grab the antiseptic and stop her to do it myself.
i laugh to myself bitterly.
as if putting a plaster over her cuts would plaster over the cracks in our trust."baby, i'm so sorry. i--"
i don't deserve to be alive.
i'm a monster.an abomination. my grievous faults lay slashed across her bleeding heart.
no wonder she cheated.
i can't look after her like he can.i'm hurting both of us.
but i can't stop.
god, i can't stop.
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she doesn't love me || kjd
Fanfictionyou can call me monster. you will learn to love me. *lower case intended