she doesn't love me || kjd

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it happened for a second time.
this time: it was worse.

her mistake this time was this.

i see her spraying perfume, and taking her purse and keys and i stop her.

she was wearing the new necklace that i'd bought her.

"where do you think you're going?"
i ask, casually leaning on the door frame, both malice and fear underlying the cheeriness in my tone.

"i'm going out for lunch. to a friend's house. i hope that's okay?"
she smiles coyly, dodging past me.

"you mean, to see that guy again?"
i pray that she'd say no.

"well yeah, we already made plans so..." she lingers towards the hallway.

"what's his name?"

"why're you so interrogative all of a sudden? you jealous?" she teases.
and i am.

"tell me." i whine.

"byun baekhyun. look, i'll be back soon, okay babe?"

it's not like i don't trust her.
it's just that i don't trust him.

"you can't go."

"huh? why not?"
she tilts her head to the side and furrows her brows.

"you don't have the luxury of choosing when to see me."

"jongdae, you're not making sense-"
she pouts. usually, seyeon's cute puzzled expression would be enough to diffuse my rage... but not this time.

i instinctively reached for--

"jongdae, stop it!"

"let me go!" she cries.

and then it happened. again.

"you promised you wouldn't do it again." she chokes out.

i can't move a muscle. i'm just as shocked.

"i- i didn't-- mean t-"

lost for words, i drop to my knees and wrap my arms around her. she's trembling.
i hold her still and kiss the tears on her cheeks.

she jerks her body back - away from me.
she's...
s c ared
of me...?

i slowly take my hands off her and leave her there.

she didn't go to her "friend's" house in the end.