(collab) PewdieCry - The key to my heart.

Chapter twenty three - worries

Ryan P.o.V.

(Written by drawing devil again :])

I stare at the ceiling. What am I happy to be finally in my human form again. Note to myself; Don't ever change back in front of people because you don't really wear clothes if you change back. Gray luckily knew that and just put me in the bathroom at Zoey's place and laid some new clothes down next to me, saying it was going to be awkward otherwise. I still have my tail and ears though.... It makes me look so fluffy... I don't know if I like that... Gray doesn't wants to tell me how to hide them cause he things I look 'adorable'. His words not mine. 

I put my hands on my ears and pull at them carefully.

Still can't believe I'm a fox and these ears are real. They look like the ears your younger sister puts up for a dress up... I like my tail though! It's really soft.

Zoey lets me sleep in the attic on a 'bed' of pillows and blankets. It's freezing here and the bed doesn't really lay comfortable... Far from that! It's like sleeping on a wooden table... I almost start to miss my own castle with my own bed and warm room. Almost! Two things this world doesn't includes what it makes better: I don't have my annoying brothers to actually pull me off my bed or taunt me. I miss Nathan though... He would loved it here! He always liked nature. I'm curious what he would say when his little brother is turned into a fox! He would probably walk behind me all day, saying: "See! I told you magic was real!" I would groan and he would laugh. Then he would ruffle my hair and call me little one or shrimp in a loving way and I would be angry on him for that. No not really... I would be angry for a very short time and then laugh about it too. I chuckle at the thought. Yeah, Nathan would loved it here...

I hope I can see him again. I don't want to leave him behind with Max... Then maybe he would be the next one for the bullying. Or maybe... Maybe they are happy without me... No one to be mad on again, no trouble, no one who is giving the family a bad name, no one who breaks the rules, who is rude, who doesn't listens, who makes a problem over being a prince... They won't even miss me... They would praise Mad for getting rid of me. They just tell a made up story to the magazines like Royals and then everything will be fine. No one will ever notice I'm gone... No one ever noticed me. No one except... Except the one I've been so rude to ...Felix... I need to find him. I just need to help him like he tried to help me. Show him I do care. Get him away from Mad.

I hear a small knock on the door.

"Ryan can I come in?" It's Gray.

"Sure."

He pushes the door open. In his hands he holds a tray with two plates, a little pan and cutlery.

"I thought I could bring you your meal. We can't eat it downstairs. Zoey is practising spells."

I jump from my bed and sit down on the wooden floor. Gray comes sitting across from me and puts the tray between us. I guess he comes just at the right time! I was really getting hungry! Gray puts a plate in front of me and gives me the cutlery.

"What did you make?" I say hungry.

"Chicken in tomato sauce."

He pulls the lid of the pan. I stare down at what is supposed to be my meal... It looks terrible!

"W-What is that?" I say pointing at the stuff in the pan. "Your and my dinner."

He gets a big spoon and puts some of the tomato with chicken mess on his plate. He wolfs into it. I hesitate if I actually want to eat whatever he made... He sees me staring down at the food.

"Come on! I will eat it otherwise!" He says with a mouth full of tomato sauce.

"Are you sure 'this' is chicken?" I say putting some of it on the spoon and let it fall back into the pan.

"Yeah of course! I have caught it myself!"

He 'caught' it himself?! I sigh and put some of it on my plate. How bad can it be... I accidentally ate potion ,thanks to Mad, once. This can't be worse right...

"Come ooonnn just eat it!" 

I close my eyes and force myself to take a bite.

"Yaaay!" I hear Gray cheer. Till my surprise this tastes really good! I eat the food greedily.

"See? It isn't so bad right? I can cook!"

Soon the whole pan is empty, it looks almost like a clean one! I let myself fall back and hug my tail against my full belly.

"God that was good!" I sigh.

"Haha if you thought that was good, try to eat a chicken raw when you're in your fox form!"

I raise my eyebrows.

"Raw?! Like killed with blood and everything?! No thank you..."

I shiver at the gruesome image in my head of ripping a chicken apart.

"You will try to eat a small animal even when you say you won't as a human! When you're an animal you have lesser feels for what you kill." Gray lets himself fall back on the floor too. "And I can know, believe me... I saw some things as an animal, I never could handle as a human..."

There is a small hint of sadness in his voice. Did Gray killed people? He doesn't looks like a guy who just goes out hurting people, like Mad. How did Gray actually got here...

"Hey Gray?"

"Hm?"

"How did you get in this world?"

It stays quiet for a few seconds.

"I don't know..."

That answer surprises me. How does he means he doesn't knows? He is probably born here, right?

"I can't remember anything about my childhood... Only that one day I woke up in the forest, bruised, broken and wounded. I was crying like my life depended on it, but I had no idea why. I felt this weird feeling in my heart, like it was empty... It missed someone... I tried to remember but I couldn't. But thinking back about that feeling just makes me sad... It still feels like I'm missing something obvious and important."

I look at Gray. He has tears in his eyes and tries to hold them back.

"Some people say you can't miss what you don't know ,but I do. I miss it... My heart screams for it every time. Betrayal, fear, sadness, anger is what I felt. Is what I feel. The only way to escape those feels is my wolf form. It keeps real emotions away... I feel a bit of a coward, that I flight, but..."

He tries to force a smile.

"I can't fight it because I am my own enemy..." 

I stare silently at Gray. It breaks my heart seeing him like this. Who ever did this to him is cruel... They scarred him for life and don't even let him know what did it. He can't even fight against something because he doesn't knows.

"I came here thanks to Mad..." I say to break the silence.

"Why?" Gray asks.

"I don't know... He always hated me for some reason. I'm just scared he took more people besides me from my world to this one."

The image of Felix goes trough my head. The silly baby face badass who rescued me.

"You're a worried aren't you?"

I smile. Gray seems to already know me better than everyone ever did in my world.

"I am... I'm never worried but this person just saved me back in my world and tried to be nice. He is like my guardian angel. I'm just scared if he is also here, Mad is going to use him or take advantage of him..." Gray stands up and stretches out. "It's pretty late now. I promise we're going to search for him tomorrow, Foxy."

He picks up the tray and walks to the door. In the doorway he stops.

"Because you really like this boy, don't you?"

Till my surprise the answer is clear as day.

"Yes... I do..."

Gray smiles at me. "Goodnight, Ryan."

I get to my bed. "Goodnight Gray."

The door closes and the darkness fills my room. Felix please be okay...

(Hope you liked it!)