I sit next to Dylan on one of the six logs that surround the fire, and we all except Mariana, Emma, and Nathan who are still in the house, prepare the smores.
"I don't know about you guys but I haven't done this kind of stuff since I was a kid." Dylan says.
"Yeah, it feels nice to be a kid again." Noah replies.
Aiden plops a marshmallow onto a stick. "I was simple back then."
"I can't even remember how it feels to not have a care in the world." Lucas looks at all of us.
"Or the last time I was truly happy." I say looking at the fire.
"You're not happy?" Dylan looks over at me.
I shrug. "Are you?"
He frowns, and I look at everyone else. "I mean are any of you guys happy? And I'm not talking about a few minutes of fun and laughter, I'm talking about truly." I shake my head, laughing a little. "I know I'm not."
"No," Aiden sighs. "No I feel miserable."
"Me too." Noah joins.
"Yeah, it's like... I have all these amazing people around me all the time, and I have a family who supports me, yet I feel so alone. I feel like I'm missing something and I feel guilty for not being able to just enjoy what I have." Jason confesses.
Jackson nods, "You know I always hear people say how high school is just four years of your life and it will be over before you know it but... these four years feel like an eternity of absolute hell and I don't want to do it anymore."
"I'm not truly happy, but I'm mot miserable. I'm just tired you know? I'm tired of working so much." Lucas stares at a piece of marshmallow.
"I'm tired of living. Living is honestly so fucking hard... Sometimes I just wish we had a choice to be brought into this world." Dylan looks down at his feet and I lay my head on his shoulder. We all stay quiet and I realize that no matter how many years, or how many things you know, we will never really know what runs around peoples heads. Especially the ones you care about most.
"We're all just fucked up." I whisper.
"Isn't everyone?"
"Not Emma apparently." Mariana plops down on one of the logs, looking very upset. I lift my head back up. "Seriously Jackson, could you go fuck her so she can stop being so god damn stiff?"
"Sorry but we're broken up." Jackson shrugs and we all look at him.
"Wait you two broke up?" I ask.
He nods, "Yeah we broke up like a week or so ago." He stares at our shocked expressions and frowns, "Did you guys not know."
"Does it look like we knew?" Mariana says irritably. "God just go fuck her anyway, she's such a fucking bitch lately."
"What happened?" Aiden asks.
"She's just always so mean, or in a bad mood like someone shaved half of her head. And she takes it out on my boyfriend all the time."
"What? Why?" Jason asks.
"Cause she's psycho! She has this conspiracy that Nathan is just using me for sex and we haven't even had sex yet! Like for the love of god back the fuck off my boyfriend!" She clenches her fists.
"Have you told her that? I mean she's just trying to protect you." Dylan suggests.
"Yeah, even if its in a bitchy way." Noah adds.
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We Are The Kids Our Parents Warned Us About
Teen FictionI push away from him and slap his arm. "You idiot! I thought I as going to die!" "I was never going to kill you." He smirks. "Yet." _________________ Her life was was a mess until she meets the guy who will probably make it worse or make it all go...
