WAITING TO EXHALE:
There's so many emotions swirling in me that I can't think straight
Begging for a distraction, then screaming cause it's just too much
Yelling at things that I don't really hate
Can't process anything cause I'm bristling to the touch.
I'm drowning in emotions I can't pin point
And suffocating in a longing for something that I can't say out loud
I cling onto you like you're my saving grace
Cause with you I find release from my fate
It doesn't make sense to cry, so I don't
Or maybe I can't and can't tell the difference
If I'm reduced to begging, I won't
I'm feeling too much all at once
My distractions are a nuisance, it just makes the pounding louder
Gripping my head like a vice while my body shivers and shudders
Empty memories and terrifying ones pervade my mind
Threatening to cripple me while keeping me up at night
Memories, that I hoped would've been long forgotten, haunt me
Twisting my insides as relive it over and over again
I refuse to call it trauma as it shouldn't be
Praying that for once, this was all in my head
Pen to paper and fingers to my keyboard
I write as I process and find myself breathing again
This little solace of a few unspoken words
Is enough for me to clear my head
With an exhale, I can feel a weight lifted
As now my mind begins to process as it's no longer clouded
So calmly I, unhealthily, place things back into their respective boxes
And release a breath, cause for just a little while longer I don't feel locked in.
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Letting It Out
PuisiThese are some of the Poems and Songs that I have written. Some are written recently and others I wrote a long time ago. I trying to update weekly but sometimes life gets in the way. Without further ado... Hope you enjoy :-D Highest Ranking: #3 in...