Loving Jax |COMPLETED| *currently Editing*

Chapter V

Sitting up from a restless sleep , I realize Jax never came back. Why would he storm out like that? I never meant to hurt him. I have loved him for so long and he reveals he loves me and just goes away!? My heart hurt. I check my phone to see if he has messaged me and he hasn't. It isn't like him. I look at the time seeing it's only 2:30 in the morning and groan. Fuck. I'm so used to him being here I can't even sleep. Especially with how things were left.
I push myself out of the bed as I call Isabel.it rings a couple times before she picks up.
" hello?" She sounds as if I woke her up.
" I'm sorry Izzy. I didn't mean to wake you" I said as my voice cracked.
" are you okay el? What happened" Her voice was worried.
" oh Isabel , you were right. You were right all along and I think it might be too late" my voice cracks as tears begin to form in my eyes.
" I'll be right over" she hangs up instantly. I curl up in my bed thinking over how stupid I was. How in denial I was. I could see he cared for me , but that doesn't mean he loved me in that way right? Or was I just telling myself that so I wouldn't get hurt? About fifteen minutes and I here the door open. As she sees me crying he opens her arms for me and rubs my hair soothingly.
" it's okay ellie , he will come back."
" he was so upset Izzy" I sniffle finally calming down.
" look just go to his dorm and demand he talk to you. Show him that you care" she says understandingly.
" you know what? You're right." I stand up and go to the bathroom cleaning my face up as much as possible.
" I'll be here when you get back okay?" She assures me. I take a deep breath and nod , making my way out of the door.
As I walk up to his door I feel along the frame finding his extra key. Unlocking it , I see beer bottles scattered along the counter. I shake my head. He was always the one to drown his sorrows in alcohol. I make my way to his room but stop in my tracks as I hear the bed squeaking and a noise too feminine to come from him. I take in a sharp breath as I see him through the door with another girl. His muscles flexed as he pounded away and he gripped onto him. I turn around trying to go unnoticed but me being the klutz that I am knocked a few beer bottles over onto the floor.
Jax whips his head towards the door and as he sees me , I make a run for it. Tears stream down my face refusing to stop as run down the stairs as fast as I can.
" Ellie" he calls for me as he runs after me. My name coming from his mouth was a little slurred from his drinking. He was slower than me because of his intoxication , which I was thankful for. I couldn't look him in the face right now. Or ever again. He confesses his love for me all to go screw some bitch. As I shut the door loudly behind me I lock both locks , sliding down it and cry into my hands.
" Elizabeth!?" Isabel runs in and cradles my shaking body.
" what happened? What did he do?" Her face twists into fury at my sorrow filled sobs.
" I never want to see him again" I sniffle wiping the tears as they flow down my face.
"'Shh it's okay" she soothes me.
There's several bangs on the door as Jax's distraught voice can be heard probably all over campus.
" Ellie I swear it meant nothing" he jiggles the door knob trying to open it.
" fuck off jax she doesn't wanna see you" Isabel snaps at him angrily.
" Isabel let me in. I have to see her" he pleads.
" you've done enough"
She pulls me onto my feet as she takes me to the room. Jax bangs on the door once again relentlessly. I hear her stomp into the living room as she cracks the door open.
" go the fuck away." Isabel threatens. " she doesn't want you here Jax. You messed up big time and I don't know if she will ever forgive you"
" I - I know Isabel. Please let me talk to her." He has never sounded more vulnerable. I peek my head out of the door and nod at her to let him in. I'll give him his little talk , after that I want him gone.
" I'll be in here" she says warning him as he comes into the room , shutting the door.
" Elizabeth" he starts as he tries to put his arms around me like always. I can't look at him.
" don't touch me" my voice quiet and hurt.
" I'm sorry Ellie bear. So sorry. I never meant for it to be like this. I was so hurt and confused" he confesses as he steps towards me again. I place my fist against his chest , keeping the remaining distance between us. I look up at him with my tear stained face as a couple more betray me and fall upon my cheeks.
" you can't tell me you love me and leave Jax. You can't tell me you love me and go lay with some fucking bitch! You can't tell me that." I bite my lip trying to stop my crying. I don't know why I'm so upset. He isn't my boyfriend. Maybe it's because I actually got my hopes up. Maybe I thought that this was what I had been waiting for my whole life.
" I know baby. I know. But you have to believe me when I say it meant nothing. Absolutely nothing. I've never wanted someone as badly as I want you el" his voice is strained and pleading for me to understand.
" you have a funny way of showing it" i rasp out.
" let me make it up to you my ellie. Please? I promise I'll make this better." He steps towards me removing my fist from his chest. As he wraps his arms around me I crumpled into a blubbering mess once again.
" baby look at me" he whispers into my ear.
" what?" I ask as I sniffle and wipe my nose.
" I'll make it better okay? You mean everything to me. She was just a one night thing. All of them were. But you aren't ellie , I hope you can see that and choose to forgive me" he nuzzles my neck.
" I can't be mad , we aren't together. But it hurts Jax. How Can I know you'll be faithful to me? You didn't even give me a chance to say anything and you left. I found you ontop of some girl!" My eyes tear up and As I finish my sentence he growls lowly in my ear.
" never question my loyalty. It's always you. It always has been and always will be you" He kisses my temple as he cradles me. We sit in the floor in each other's embrace.
" I love you my little ellie"
Looking into his eyes I begin to melt. I want to be mad at him but i can't. At this point he's completely sober and I say something I've always wanted to say to him , but this time he knows the real meaning behind it.
" I love you too Jax" I confess. He smiles ear to ear as he peppers kisses along my face. He stops before my mouth , hesitant.
" Jax?" I whisper.
"Hmm?"
" please kiss me"
It didn't take but a second. He wraps his hands in my hair gently as he pulls me into him. His lips moved along mine in sync. His tongue swiped my bottom lip for entrance as I opened letting him invade my mouth. He tugs in my lip as he groans.
" I've wanted to do this for so long" he says as he lays down on the floor his back touching the wood , he pulls me in top of him.
" never leave me like that again" I say as he holds me tightly.
" never" he whispers kissing my forehead.