Loving Jax |COMPLETED| *currently Editing*

Chapter XII

Thank you for all of the love and support I have received ❤️ btw when I say dorm I mean apartments .. lol they aren't in school. But back to my thank you's ... I really appreciate you guys so much and I never planned to stop writing ❤️ although I have been getting a lot of hateful comments I will definitely try to not let them get me down :)

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   Jax is finally coming home today. I can't describe the feelings that are all bubbling up inside of me. My hair and makeup is done and I'm wearing a dress that goes up to my mid thigh.
  " when are you leaving?" Isabel asks me quietly from the door. I look at her nervously. Jax hasn't called me since I found out. It was like he knew and was avoiding me. I decided I'd go alone to pick him up , so we could talk. Smoothing my dress as the soft fabric glides against my skin I let out a deep breathe.

" I'm just about to leave" I push my hair behind my ear.
" be safe , I'm going home so you can have privacy. If you need me just call me" she gives me a meaningful look.

     Getting into the car I grip the wheel with anxiety. My mind is racing and my palms begin to feel sweaty. Suddenly I have an urge for my moms spaghetti. It always was so comforting. I'm nervous but on the surface I look calm and ready. Pulling onto the road I turn the music up to help drown away my thoughts.
   Ohh I fall apart.. she told me that I'm not enough and she left me with a broken heart..

        Pulling up into the hell hole they call jail I look up at it with hatred. They took Jax from me. But today is the day I will get him back. Walking into the building the man asks my name and why I'm here.
" Elizabeth. I'm here to pick up Jax daughtry" I inform him.
" it seems he has been discharged already ma'am" he tells me as he raises one eye brow at me.
" a-are you sure?" I look at him in disbelief. He nods his head at me and I tell him thanks before I leave. I feel a tear threatening to fall down my cheek. Where did Jax go? Why is he avoiding me? My breathing increases as I begin to panic slightly.
      Getting into the car I call Isabel , clearly upset. It goes straight to voice mail. What the fuck!? Who could've picked him up? Dad? No. He wouldn't. Jared? Possibly. I pick up the phone and click on his contact only to get forwarded. What in the absolute hell is going on? Is Jax in trouble? I am not quite sure what to do except go home. As I make my way there I finally receive a call back from Isabel.
  
   " what's up?" She asks as soon as I answer.
  " Jax was discharged already. He's been avoiding me. I don't know what to do" I sniffle and wipe my tears away with my hand that has the phone in it.
" calm down. Maybe Jared picked him up already. Who knows? Just wait and if he hasn't shown up in a couple of days .. I hate to say it but fuck him ellie." She says in a sorry tone.
    " I can't do that. He took a sentencing for me. He got charges for me. He loves me. I know he does and I won't stop until we are old and gray and ready to wither away together" I determinedly say.
  " I know el , I know" she sighs.
" I'm pulling up to the dorm now , I'll call you later" I hang up the phone before she can say anything. I know she won't take offense to that. We do it all of the time.
     
If I were Jax , where would I go? To the bar.
I instantly make a U-turn and head for the bar a little ways away from the dorm. Driving there I can't stop thinking about if Jax really has decided I'm not enough for him. Maybe he thinks I can't handle his lifestyle. Truth is maybe I can't , but I would die trying. All for him. Everything I will do will always be for him.
 
         The bar was kind of full for the middle of the day. Going up to the counter I ask the bartender if he has seen Jax. I describe him in detail but he says he hasn't seen him. I sigh and sit at the bar , ordering a couple random shots. As long as I'm here I might as well be dramatic and drown my sorrows. Or what I would call sorrows. I never know how much I loved Jax until I lost him. Until I found him fucking Samantha and telling me he loved me.

      The burning of the alcohol surged through me. Getting up to my feet I felt wobble and even more uncoordinated than I am sober. The bartender man told me to sit down or I'd hurt myself but I swatted his words away with my hand and kept walking. I debate on whether I should call an Uber or just drive myself. Truth is if I were to drive i would most likely get into a wreck and that definitely isn't something I want. For me or for someone else I may hurt.

      Making my way back to the dorm , the driver tries to make small talk but truth is I'm a little to occupied to talk back. I miss Jax. I wanted so badly to see him today. As he pulls up to the dorms he wishes me a farewell and tell me to be very careful on my way to my place. I won't lie , I tripped coming into the elevator and about pissed myself because it jolted slightly and made an awful sounds. Elevators terrify me to No end.

      Opening the apartment door I thought I had remembered to lock it. The tv is on the walking dead. I don't remember turning it to amc. I shrug and take my shoes off throwing them in the corner. I hold onto the cold smooth wall so I don't fall over. Walking into my room and I look up I see flowers and candles. On my bed is a beautiful man , with his perfect smile gleaming up at me.
" Jax?" I whisper in disbelief.
" it's me baby , I missed you. Daddy's home" he smirks