Eighteenth Poem- In Me

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In Me

They peeled off

My self respect bit by bit

Making me drink out of a trough

And even then I still got kicked or hit


They peeled off everything

Until there was nothing left

Of the young energetic girl that had been joyfully flourishing

Who ended up with no friends, hobbies, self respect or an interest


My personality vanished from sight

And everything was controlled by them

No bursting feelings of happiness or delight

Because they just had to take them all away too


I thought the girl who used to be me was gone

The one that got forced away

That she gave up, had enough and was done

Because she wanted everything to again be okay


I never forgot who I used to be

As I look into my empty eyes everyday

I never forget how it felt to be free

Before I got betrayed


The poor girl is in a cage

That is covered with strong bars in my mind

She is the one interested in animals and the ice age

She is the one that dances in the rain and strives to be kind


She waited patiently unfazed

As if she was waiting for me to let her out

And she herself is amazed

Because she has never been in doubt


She is waiting for the day

She could be let out and be free

She is the only one to stay

The only one who refuses to give up on me


She shined her light on my dark mind

So I could see flashes of a different life

Memories that had been combined

Even her dreams to one day be a midwife


They were all just memories though

But I won't lose my small hope I found not long ago

As the emptiness inside me somehow has been overthrown

I now want to do the impossible and escape and be free

It's because I found out that I was never alone

She had always been there and believed in me 


By DEVILSANGEL7

By DEVILSANGEL7

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(sorry..I couldn't help myself😁)





Umm...that felt like the most emotionless poem I have written so far but never mind. Thank you to everyone who has read my poems as it means a lot to a desperate piglet like me. And I just realised how much I have learned since the beginning even though its not much. Thanx to everyone, especially my friends for the support. 😊

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