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ELEVEN

"What do you really want to do, Finn?" she asked, smiling as she twirled her fork in the pasta. Autumn and I were having lunch outside. She wasn't allowed to go outside as much so she didn't really want to have lunch inside the hospital. She needed the fresh air.

I told her about the Make a Wish Foundation wish I'd gotten because I needed help deciding what I wanted to do. I thought maybe if I told her, she'd help me figure it out. Ever since the doctor came in to tell me about the wish, the only thing I could think of was how I was running out of time. I had no idea what I wanted to do and even if I did, I'd have trouble deciding on what to do because I was the epitome of indecisiveness.

"I have no idea," I said, picking at my salad. "What do you want to do?"

"I can't tell you what to choose, Finn. You asked for my help, you didn't ask me to choose your wish for you," she sighed. Autumn was right. I was trying to get her to tell me what to do, I wasn't asking for her help.

Autumn still had no idea that I was dying. I didn't want to tell her but I knew that I'd have to eventually. She was smart and she was going to figure it out one way or the other because all signs pointed to it. I got taken out of the hospital and then a few days later I got a wish from the Make a Wish Foundation. I was surprised that she was still oblivious. My mom would probably give me a speech about how it'd be better to tell her sooner than later but I disagreed. It was hard enough to tell anyone besides my mom. I was going to have to tell Autumn but at least I'd have more time to think of what to say and how to tell her.

"What if you write a bucket list?" Autumn said suddenly, pulling me out of my thoughts. "Maybe it'd spark up some ideas and help you decide." A bucket list—that wasn't a bad idea and maybe it'd actually help.

"That's a good idea," I said.

"If you can bring someone along with you then you know," she winked, indirectly referring to herself. "You should bring a friend. Her name is a season."

I laughed at that.

Oh, Autumn.

I was indecisive, yes, but I was a hundred percent sure about one half of my wish—you.

 

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Very, very sorry that this is a short update. I started finals and idk I'm trying to write as much as possible before school buries me completely. I'm sorry this is not a daily kind of challenge, I am trying. I really am. The sooner I get out of school, the more I can update. I already failed at this challenge though BUT I'm going to continue it.