It is not your fault. You give people a choice and they choose. Its upto them. Do you love me more than you love partying? Do you want to change or you want to stay the same? Do you want the same things or not. I've had people be real with me and i've had people lie and say what they thought would make me happy but at the end of the day, we're either going somewhere or we are not. Its either growing or wilting. You're either still figuring out or you know what's up. I know who I am. I know what I want. Sometimes I get scared and feel like i will never find someone I can relate to that lives the kind of life I wanna live. Is there really someone out there who gets me? Can I find someone who wants what I can offer and appreciate me for who I am, for more than just the things on the surface? Its hard to see past whats in front of you sometimes and honestly i get caughtup in that alot. But I have to believe things wont always be this way. I have to believe there's more respect and love and understanding out there than I have been shown by the people who hurt me. There are plenty of people who didnt appreciate me but I was one of them. I am just now comfortable enough to walk away from people who dont get me. I am just now getting strong enough to say no. I am just now becoming brave enough to even WANT a good person. I used to feel so unworthy I didnt dare let myself believe I could ever have that. Its crazy how scary it is to even let myself want that.
But I am awake now, I am up. I am ready. I want it. I cant go back. I have to be believe good things are on thier way cuz i refuse to accept things how they are. I cant avoid it anylonger. I want more.
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