Save me From the Darkest Places

Chapter Fourteen: I Wanna Be Loved

It was around 2 in the morning and I couldn't think. I had snuck out from the bus just to take a walk and I've been waking for about an hour now. Ash is acting different.. when we were together before everything happened he wouldn't dare hurt me, and now.. he wouldn't dare not to. He made me call my band and tell them I was feeling sick so they had to have a fan sing for me and Ash sang with his own band.. As did Asking.. my band was upset but I didn't dare tell them the real reason, they would take me away from Ashley!

"Andy?" I flinched before turning to see Danny walking up. "D-Danny? I uh.. I can't talk to you." I started to turn to walk away as fast as possible before he grabbed my arm. "No. Andy please don't walk away again.. why are you ignoring me?"

His voice seemed to be full of pain and confusion, making me instantly feel bad. "Danny.. Ash has his rules and I have to follow them." "Rules? Andy you aren't his pet." I sighed as he dragged me to his bus and helped me on. As we sat on his bunk I groaned, the mattress feeling completely different from the last time I was on it. "Can.. I lay down?" "Of course." I smiled weakly before scooting against the wall and laying on my back, trying to get comfortable. "You look sore.. you alight?" "My back is a little sore.. no big deal." "Are you sure? Here, lets talk while I rub it up for you." I bit my lip before sighing and allowing him to roll me over. As long as he didn't see my stomach and sides.

As he was pressing his hands in my back I couldn't help but let soft moans slip. "So Andy.. why are you if ignoring me and your band?" "I'm not ignoring my band.." "You don't hang out with them and you cancelled the concert last night." "I was feeling sick.." "No you weren't." "Danny I just have things going on." He fixed a pillow under my face and I let my body melt into the feeling, just for tonight. "Andy I want you safe."

He wants me... safe? Safe from who? Ashley? Ashley wouldn't hurt me that bad though.. only what I deserve. Ashley does and will forever love me. He told me.. actually.. I don't even remember.. Whens the last time he told me he loved me?

I felt tears welling in my eyes and cursed before I felt arms wrapping around me. The fact that Ashley might not love me was a reason for my whole existence to disappear. It was enough for me to kill myself right now. Ashley's my rock and without him, who am I? I'm nothing. I am absolutely nothing.

I was pulled into his chest and broke into sobs. "Shh." "I wanna be loved.. I want someone to love me..!" "I know Andy. I know, I love you." I looked up at him and my eyes were wide. "You do?" "What I said that night was true Andy, you mean the world to me." He went to spin me when my hips twisted and a bruise immediately started to throb. "Ow! Ow stop!" He immediately froze before I jumped off his lap and I bit my lip. "What happened? Whats wrong?" He went to lift my shirt but I stepped back. "I have to go." "Andy sleep here." "No." I started walking out before I froze at a knock on the door. "Andy is that you?!"

Ashley..

"...Ash." My body shook in fear as I shakily opened the door. My eyes locked with Ashley's and he looked angry. "What the hell are you doing here?" "I w-was taking a walk when B-Ben found me, we were t-talking." His hand slapped my cheek in a quick motion before my body was pulled back by none other than Danny. "Don't out your fucking hands on him again!" "We're going. Now." I shakily pulled Danny's arm off but he held tighter before feet wandered in. I saw James before Danny spoke. "James can you help Ashley here out." "Sure." "We are done Andrew. We are over and forgotten! You dumb piece of shit! I wasted time on you for this?!" He stepped forward but I jumped back into Danny and hid my face before I heard James. "Hey, hey out." As feet walked away and the door shut I broke into sobs and Danny led me down the bus. "Lay down, he's just tired Andy. We'll deal with it later." "Don't leave me Danny..!" "Never." He pulled me close and I nuzzled my face in the crook of his neck as my hands clutched to his shirt. He kissed my forehead softly before I let myself continue to cry.

I'm over.

I have absolutely nothing. No one.