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Special Update : *Nico's Suicidal Note*

*Nico’s Suicidal Note*

It’s been three days since she broke up with me. She doesn’t tell me any reason. She just left.  Few weeks from now will be our first year anniversary and I thought we’ll be celebrating it together. I thought we’ll be together for the rest of our lives but we don’t. Many people say we’re too young to tell if the person we have right now will be with us forever but I don’t care. All I know is she was the one and she’ll be my one and only for the rest of my life. All I know is that this shit is killing me.

After nya akong iwan sa park kung saan kami nagkita, hindi ko na sya nakausap ulit. I tried to call her number but it cannot be reached any more. I tried to go to their house but her yaya told me that she doesn’t want to talk to anybody. Umalis ako sa tapat ng bahay nila na unti-unting nawawalan ng pag-asa. The moment I reached our house, the rain started to pour. As the rain poured, tears fell from my eyes. I went straight to my room but before I reached it, nakita ako ng mommy ko. She asked me what’s wrong then I suddenly break down. I told her everything and she told me not to be depressed about it. Kung kami daw talaga ang para sa isa’t isa, tadhana na daw ang gagawa ng paraan...

Dear Bree,

            Baby, bakit mo ko iniwan bigla? Hindi mo na ba ako mahal? May nagawa ba kong mali? Baby, all I want is for you to be happy. Ilang weeks na lang, first year anniversary na natin, bakit ngayon pa? Bakit ngayon pang sobrang mahal na kita?

            In 2 weeks time, I’ll be joining the biggest skateboarding competition and you promised to be there to watch and support me. I was expecting that day to be perfect. It’ll be our first year anniversary. Excited na ko sa araw na yun. Ayun din kasi ang araw na sasabihin ko sa lahat ng tao dun kung gaano kita ka mahal. Bree, bakit ka biglang nakipag-hiwalay? Masakit eh.

            Since you broke up with me, wala nang reason para mabuhay pa ko. There is no fvckin’ reason coz you’re the only reason why I’m still breathing. Hindi ko alam if I can still make it to the competition pero if ever man umabot ako sa araw na yun, ayun na siguro ung huling araw ko sa mundong to. Yun na ang huling araw na mararamdaman ko ang sakit dahil wala ka na. Sa araw na yun, sisiguraduhin kong hindi na ko masasaktan ulit. Sisiguraduhin kong tapos na lahat ng paghihirap ko. Ayokong pagsisihan ang mga bagay na ginawa ko nuon kaya sa araw na yun, susubukan kong maging masaya.

            Ang gagamitin kong skateboard sa competition is yung binigay mo sa kin nung 3rd month natin. Simula nung binigay mo sa kin yun, naging lucky charm na yun sa kin. Lahat ng sinalihan kong competition, nanalo ako. Natatandaan mo pa ba nung 3 consecutive weeks akong sumali sa competition at puro perfect ang score ko, dahil yun sa skateboard na binigay mo sa kin at dahil yun sa presence mo. Alam kong nanunuod ka kaya ginagalingan ko at nag-iingat ako. Baby, sa huling competition na sasalihan ko, promise ikaw lang iisipin ko. Wala akong ibang iisipin kundi ikaw.

            Baby, mahal na mahal kita. Siguro by the time na binabasa mo to, wala na ko. Payapa na kong nagpapahinga. Wag na wag mong sisihin ang sarili mo sa nangyari sa kin. Wag na wag kang malulungkot. Ipag-patuloy mo lang ang buhay mo. Buhay na wala ako. Princess, I don’t know the reason why you broke up with me but I fully understand. Our fairytale doesn’t have it’s happy ending. Tanggap ko na. Hindi na ko galit. Masaya na ko ngayon. Be happy and keep safe always. I love you until the last fvckin breathe of me! Thank you for the good times you shared with me. Thank you for making me feel loved and letting me love you. You’re too perfect that breaking up with you kills me inside and out. Baby, be strong. I love you. See you in heaven kung dun man ako mapupunta. Bye!

                                                                                                          -Nicolo Devera

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Sorry yan lang kinaya ng powers ko! Hndi ko naman kasi alam yung pakiramdam ng suicidal eh! Sorry! -_-

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