Throwing Away my Past, Contemplating my Future

Nineteen

I woke up in my own bed. I was happy it was here instead of at the hospital. I looked at the clock - 9.27am. Being the lazy person I sometimes am, I decided to stay in bed and check my phone. As soon as I unlocked it, I noticed a '13' beside the messages icon. It was only then that I remembered I had muted all my conversations before the concert started, so that I wouldn't get notifications during it. I clicked on the app to see 6 of them were from Jake, and 7 were from Rachel. Rachel? I checked her messages first:

Hi. I just wanna say I'm really sorry about what happened yesterday. I'll admit it was rude for me to just storm off like that. I really hope you can forgive me and we can become friends again :)
(Saturday - 10.48am)

Oh! Btw hope you had fun at the concert last night!
(Saturday - 10.49am)

Hellooooo?
(Sunday - 3.17pm)

Are you ok??
(Sunday - 8.22pm)

I really hope you're not ignoring me. I wanna be friends again and I feel awful for being so rude. Please reply :(
(Monday - 7.03am)

Why aren't you at school? Jake says you haven't been replying to him either?
(Monday - 9.08am)

Omg please tell me you didn't die
(Monday - 9.13am)

Wow. Rachel wants to be friends again? I'm not really surprised she wants to be friends, I'm just surprised she feels guilty for ditching me. I can kind of see her point about the ticket situation - she is a massive Green Day fan and would've loved to see them live...

I texted back:

Hi Rachel. I'm so so sorry for not texting back sooner. I muted all my conversations so I wouldn't get notifications during the concert and I forgot I did so. I would love to be friends again. I'm not at school because something kinda big happened. Ring me when you get home :)

Then I moved on to Jake's texts:

Heyyyy :) how was the concert? x
(Saturday - 11.09pm)

Yo yo where u at m8 x
(Saturday - 11.52pm)

Helloooooooooooo?????? x
(Sunday - 8.43am)

You know it isn't cool to ignore your new boyfriend xD x
(Sunday - 12.46pm)

Are u ok?
(Sunday - 4.18pm)

Lauren I'm really worried now why aren't you reading my messages or at school :(
(Monday - 9.14am)

I felt awful. He probably hates me for "ignoring him" when we're dating. I would certainly hate it if he ignored me. I quickly texted him saying the same thing as I said to Rachel; explaining why I wasn't replying and to ring me when he got the chance.

I decided to get up and dressed. I wasn't really in the mood to have a shower because my head was killing me. I wish dad wasn't abusive so I wouldn't have to be put in hospital. And what's worse is the whole reason we went to his house was to see Megan, and I didn't even get to see her. I got abused for nothing. Now my head was really sore, so I began making my way down to the kitchen, hoping someone was there so I could get some medicine.

As I walked down the stairs and through the hallway, I looked at the pictures on the walls. There were pictures of Joey and Jakob when they were babies and toddlers. They were adorable. There were pictures of Billie and Adrienne's wedding day, and some with Joey, Cole, Max and Seb from SWMRS when they were all children. There were even some Green Day posters, but not just any. They were limited edition posters where only 100 of them existed. There were also articles about Green Day from magazines and websites framed, and some letters and drawings from fans.

When I walked into the kitchen, I saw Adrienne putting clean dishes away, and Billie on his phone at the table. "Morning!" they both said in unison with a smile. "Morning" I replied.

"Are there any painkillers? My head is pounding" I asked. "Oh sure honey! I'll get you some now" Adrienne responded. She walked over to a cabinet and got out a box of Paracetamol, as well as filling up a glass of water. "Here you go sweetie" she said as she set the medicine and water on the counter in front of me. "Thanks" I said with a smile.

I swallowed the pills and sat down at the table with Billie. I'm quite surprised I haven't properly fangirled yet. I mean, I'm basically living in the same house as Billie Joe Armstrong. The one guy that saved my life many times. The one guy that is not only living in this house, but also living on my bedroom walls. My idol. My idol is now my "father"...