Complicated Love

Chapter 10 "Where Is The Condom?"

CRETSZ's POV;

I was waking up by a jolt.

I was sweating like hell.

Not surprising.

Mell laid face2face with me. She had her head on my chest.

I felt her warm body and her pulse close to me.

She is sleeping. I knew that.

I let go of her and raised her arm.

The arm that was full with cut marks.

I don't want to see her like this, not when she is feeling like this bad.

She is my girlfriend.. I want her to feel good.

I felt a tear ran down from my cheek.

I raised her wrist in front of my mouth.

I kissed the scars slowly and carefully.

Why? Why Mell.. Please, why?

"What are you doing?" Mell said gently. At her voice, I noticed that she was completely destroyed. "What the hell are you doing?" She said angrily and drew her hand from my mouth.

"Mell. What the hell is going on!?" I said and dropped her hand.

I sat up gently in the bed.

"What?" She said angrily and sat up.

"What? What do you mean with what? Yesterday, you drank so you almost end up in a coma and you spewed at Anieé. And when we come here, I find scars on your wrist?" I said and looked at her.

"First, where the hell am I? Secondly, it was a party? What are people doing at party's? Thirdly, it's my body! Not even your business!?" She said angrily and loudly.

She sat next to me and held her hand at the wrist.

"We are at Jacks place.. Of course you can drink if you want, but not like that much! And not my business!? It's my business if my own girlfriend is shelfharming!" I said and looked at her.

She said nothing but just looked down at the ground.

"Melladieé what the hell is going on?" I said and took my hand on her cheek. I lifted her head gently and saw that she was crying. I grabbed her and pulled her close to me. I held her tightly and hugged her. "Look, I love you. And I'm your boyfriend. I don't want you to feel bad. If you feel bad then I feel bad. We will, we'll get through this Mell.." I said and hugged her hard.

I laid me down gently with Mell close to me. She laid on my chest.

"You love me?" She said suddenly and looked up at me.

"Of curse I do." I said and hugged her even tighter.

Of course I love her.

MELL's POV;

"You love me?" I said and looked up at Cretsz.

"Of curse I do." He said and hugged me even harder.

He loves me. He really love me.

"I love you too.." I said.

I wish I could tell him. Tell him about my marks on my hand. Say why I have it there.

But I just, I just can't.

I put my head on Cretsz chest again.

I love this guy. I relly do.

"I need a shower. I feel so disgusting." Said Cretsz suddenly.

CRETSZ's POV;

"I need a shower. I feel so disgusting." I said.