Dear Niall,
July 21
Stupid fucking Riverstone. I hate it here. They think I "need help." I don't. What I need is to go home.
They think I need to take medicine twice a day for "depression" and they make me go to arts and crafts and it's miserable.
They made me paint this morning, and then got angry at me for painting the entire canvas black. They said it needed color. I added a yellow circle.
They also make me go to individual and group therapy, which I hate. My therapist, Anna, always asks me questions about "how I'm doing" and "what I'd like to talk about" but the answers to those questions are always "I'd be better if I didn't have to be here." and "Nothing, I just want to eat my sucker."
Group therapy is awful, too. We all sit in fold up chairs around seven and go around the circle and talk about our day. I don't really want to sit around with a bunch of people I don't know (nor do I care to know) and talk about my 'problems.' I don't even have problems.
They're making me go through some kind of analysis tomorrow morning, too. I don't know what it is, I hope it's not too miserable. I hope I can go home soon.
I think I let everyone down, Niall. Dad, you, Louis, possibly. If Mom were here, I think she'd be disappointed in me, too. I let myself down the most, though. I should've been more careful. I shouldn't have let myself get caught.
It's late, so I guess I'll go now. I love you, okay? You're my best friend.
Love,
Elle
Dear Elle,
July 21
I miss you. I miss you, I miss you, I miss you.
Your dad came to talk to me today. He was really stressed, I think. He had purple half-circles stamped under his eyes and his skin was pale.
I think he'd originally come to talk to me about you, but he sort of put a few things together and realized I'd been living alone. He totally flipped his shit, then, but I convinced him not to call my dad.
You're getting out of Riverdale soon, and I'm so excited. We still have a
little bit of summer left, you know.
Love,
Niall
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Okay I know I haven't updated in a while I'm sorry.
I have state testing Monday-Friday and volleyball conditioning almost ever day after school as well but I swear I'm gonna do my best to update. School gets out for me on May 30, so after school's out I'll have a lot more time to write.
Also, I love the attention this book has been getting. Please vote, comment, and spread the word about Because. Also, you can check out my other story, called Seven, if you'd like (its a Harry fanfic).
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