Hes Back.

Chapter 7

"What do you mean you couldn't find her?" I resisted the urge to panic.

"Leila listen listen to me calm down she probably is in one of the bathrooms or something its okay she'll show up," Elliot said with a calming voice.

"Elliot we were just in the fucking bathroom!" I yelled.

Elliot stepped back taking in my frustrations.

"She is probably in another bathroom, where else would she go?" he stepped closer raising his hands slowly causing me to flinch, which he noticed his face morphed slightly hurt.

"I was in your room alone and yet this random guy is able to come and well you know,Chloe is drunk and walking around with no charge on her phone. If I could have this happen to me in your closed room upstairs, what could happen to her while she's drunk and walking around in a crowded room?" I ranted pacing around his room my breathing slowly quickening.

The sight of me made Elliot panic making him reach out and grab me tightly, I flinched screaming for a second then freezing in his arms.

"Leila Leila shh its me its okay," he held onto me tightly shushing me calmly.

We stayed like this for a few minutes till I separated from him remembering the situation.

"We have to go find her, we have to go now." I looked at Elliot grabbing my phone heading to the door.

"Are you sure you don't want to stay here for a while more we can go out in a bit and then look."

Why is he not understanding what I'm saying to him??

I looked at him confused for a minute trying to answer my own question.

"Why would we do that, its not going to help anyone? Is it going to find Chloe? Is she going to magically randomly show up in your room? What would we talk about even? Did we not agree that we were just not going to interact.."

He stood there surprised at my response,"I thought that since you came to my party then maybe you wanted to be okay again, be friends, like old times.."

"Do you really think thats going to end well, we both know what happened between us." I felt my heart pound a little harder, taking a deep breathe I turned to completely face him trying to maintain my facial expressions blank.

"Yes Leila I remember what happened but what are the chances that all this will happen again, this time could be better. Im not leaving this time, we could go back and be even stronger, as if nothing happened. Don't you miss it?"

"But something did happen," I mumbled, purposely ignoring his last question.

"It wont happen again though,Im sorry Leila how many times will I have to apologize?" Sadness dripped from every word he spoke.

I stared back not knowing how to reply to his question. How am I supposed to just forgive him? I cant, I cant do this, I can't do this to myself.

"Leila," I looked up focusing back onto him, "please say something."

"I don't want to take my chances," regretting my words one by one as I said them out loud.

I sound like a horrible person.

"Im sorry," I apologized not only to Elliot but to myself as well.

"Will you answer my question? Do you miss how we used to be?" he looked down at me with the smallest bit of hope bright in his eyes.

I stuttered looking at his eyes, my heart beats quickening. I cant answer this.