The HeartBreaks

Chapter 4

Quotes:

Regret is a form of punishment itself.

~Unknown~

Chapter 4: Regret.

I felt something heavy around my waist which caused me to flutter my eyes open and rub my eyes getting the blurriness out of the way. I looked down confused to see an arm around my waist, turning my head to see Xander behind me sleeping.

Last night flashed into my eyes making my heart stop. What did I do? I held the sheets tight to my chest turning over squeezing it. Regret entered my body as I cursed myself out for letting him use me.

The bed shifted causing me to quickly close my eyes acting as if I was asleep, this was the only way I'd avoid him. The feeling of his arm quickly removing from my waist as the sound of him sighing was heard. The bed shifted a bit before the cold air came in contact with my back causing me to shiver, knowing he had gotten out of bed.

The bathroom door slammed shut, my eyes shot open. I quickly sat up looking down at the clothes on the ground. My hand fell into my hair as I looked around with guilt instantly hitting my heart. "What did I do?" I whispered clutching onto my hair tightly due to stress.

My head snapped over to my phone, grabbing it to check the time to see ten o'clock. I placed my phone onto the bed huffing as I laid back down closing my eyes once again to hear the bathroom door open as his footsteps were heard walking away.

I opened my eyes to see him in the closet. I took the opportunity to   quickly grabbing my robe putting it around me before throwing the sheets off me and running to the bathroom.

I shut the door behind me locking it putting my forehead against it breathing out, turning around clutching onto my chest as I walked towards the shower turning the hot water on. Last night he wasn't harsh like the night of our wedding this time he was gentle.

I closed my eyes shaking the memories of last night out of my head, slipping off my robe before stepping into the shower washing my hair and body before turning off the shower and stepping out grabbing a towel and drying myself with it.

I looked down at my neck to see two new hickeys. I closed my eyes sighing loudly, moisturizing my hands and legs before grabbing the blow drier and dried my hair then grabbing the curling iron and curling it. I opened my makeup bag and applied my makeup. When I was done with all of that I walked towards the door.

I unlocked it before slowly opening it jumping when I saw him next to the dresser buttoning his dress shirt, turning my face avoiding his eyes and walked towards the closet clutching onto my towel tightly.

I shut the closet door behind me, picking up my undergarment slipping them on then grabbing my outfit. (Outfit on top) I looked at myself in the long length mirror scanning myself. Looking at my neck to see my concealer had hidden the hickeys perfectly.

I went towards the door walking out to see he was gone. I went towards the door opening it and walking down the stairs into the dining room to see everyone sitting on the dining room table including him. He looked up at me catching my eye but we quickly broke contact.

I slowly walked over sitting on the chair beside Savannah that was across from Xander. "Good morning." Mark said. I nodded at him with a smile.