The One (Super Junior)

SPECIAL : SIWON'S POV

Choi Siwon's POV

"............I'm leaving her to you." I said to Dong Hae as I stood up and walked into my room.

To be honest, I wasn't even sure I was walking. My heart ached so bad that I was feeling so light headed. I could hardly find any strength to move, so I'm pretty sure I wobbled my way into the room.

I locked the door and laid on the bed, staring into the ceiling.

Knocks were heard, and the guys were shouting for me to open the door. But everything else was a blur. Some time later, the knocking stopped, and so did the shouting. I was finally left in pure silence, with the sound of my heart breaking.

I never knew I could love someone this much. All I ever wanted was to give her everything I could. But I realised that all I was, was a coward who couldn't even stand up for his own girlfriend and just watched as another high school student tried to pursue my girlfriend. I can ruin my career for her, but I don't know why I was such a coward back then.

I didn't want to give her up. But I knew. I knew all along that she had feelings for Dong Hae, but I was always trying to tell myself that maybe one day, she'll come to love me too.

Slowly, the many incidents just made me realise that that was never going to happen. Dong Hae was the one she loved.

I looked over to my table and saw more than 10 gifts placed nicely on my table.

I walked over and scanned for Jung Na's gift for me.

Then, it caught my eyes. It was wrapped nicely with a red wrapping paper with Christmas trees all over it. There was even a card attached to it.

"Oppa, gomawo. Thank you for all the things you have done for me! I will try my best to become a wonderful girlfriend like how much of a wonderful boyfriend you are to me. Choi Siwon daebak!"

The tears that I thought were all gone by now, flowed out like a waterfall from my eyes again.

If it was a few hours before, I would have felt pure bliss from the card. But I actually do understand the true meaning of her trying her best to be a wonderful girlfriend. It actually just meant that she will try her best to love me back.

I tore open the wrapper and hugged myself into the coat.

It's warm, very warm. But why does my heart still feel so cold, Jung Na ah?

"I'm leaving her to you." Who am I kidding? Jung Na will never leave my heart.

All our memories will never be forgotten. The first time we met, your big and round eyes captivated me. The first time I hugged you, when you found out your mom sold you to us.

I will never forget how happy you looked and how much you blushed the day you fell sick and I asked you out on a date ;

"Jung Na ah, I was just thinking. Tomorrow is my free day and since you're much better already, shall we go out tomorrow? Date....."

The first time I held your hands as I pulled you towards the ferris wheel. Do you remember? I confessed to you on the ferris wheel.

"Jung Na ah, can we have many more dates in the future? I feel happy whenever I am with you and I feel like you're a blessing to my life. I wasn't sure at first, but after you fainted right in front of me yesterday, I've never felt so sure about anything else." I looked at her right in the eyes and confessed.

I felt so shy as I broke the eye contact and looked down to my hands before looking at her again.

It's time to say it.

"I like you." 

How shy you were when I kissed you for the first time...
"Stop biting. I can't kiss you if you keep biting your lips like that."

The first time you cried for me when I misunderstood about you and Dong Hae.

The accidents you got into left me worried sick. So worried that each time, I thought I was going to die.

And now, I'm letting you go. This time, I can't even feel my heart anymore. It's dead.

Jung Na ah, there's something I didn't tell you. Even if I am not by you, I will always be your guardian angel behind you.

and you'll be the woman I love the most in this world.

No matter what.

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This chapter is so heartbreaking. T.T

This is just about how Siwon feels about this whole incident.

Tip : Imagine all this happening in your mind. Double heartbreak as you imagine Siwon sitting alone in the dark, crying.

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