The Faithless One [EDITING]

Chapter 23

Jessies POV

h-he wants to leave, run away, and i will have to forget. he should of given me to Ashton, h-he shouldnt of helped me with the car crash, its his fault and hes gonna end it. What??? i looked back at Luke and tears were streaming down mine and his own face. he didnt know what to say. luke that is, Ali is still shouting at him.

when Ali? stopped for a breathe i walked in and my makeup probably was everywhere but oh well, "so thats it, your just gonna pick up and go? you want to leave, and i have to forget you, and everything thats happened? really? you read that letter that night didnt you? yea? i know. so you know my past, i know i dont know much about yours but you know i am here and why leave? do you know that i first smiled when i met you? that was the first time i probably smile for real without faking it, so... why are you leaving? why do i need to forget you and everything? tell me zack" thats when luke walked in and sat behind me. and zack was thinking and ali was shocked.

"fine, i was going ot run, i was going to let you have someone you deserve, i dont deserve you. oki, i need treatment fast i dont hae long Jessie. i want to spend my life with you but i cant, i have to have to have chemotherapy jessie..." he said tears streaming down hus face as mine is symetrical it can be a replace.

"w-what for?" i asked my prince of my dreams,

"Leukemia princess." thats it i fell to the ground, head in my hands, this is where i need the knife, like my tattoo that no one knows about, says thats the thing about pain, it demands to be felt. i guess its true. although this time the knife can be called Kindness so im hurting myself with Kindness. yup. 

i am still on the floor crying, Luke is crouched next to me and is holding me, as i am in his chest crying. as so is he. i know i shouldnt be thinking this right now but Zacks TWIN is sorta cute..... well he would be cause they are twins but yea..... anyway..... zack...... Leukemia........ what? how no :( for one thing i know is im not leaveing my princes side, he needs me and he isnt running from me. when i looked up zack was not there. i turned to look at luke and he was crying as i am still. "where is he?" i asked in between sniffles.

"k-kitchen, want me to come?" i nodded cause i need help if there are knifes. 

so as me and luke went into the kitchen there zack was facing out the window above the sink, the view was amazing.

he didnt know i was there so i just stood next to him looking out the window admiring the view. when i turnt around he was looking at me admiring my everymove? i dont know anymore, all i know is i need the razor, rope or blade....... 

"i-im sorry you had to find out like this princess" he said embracing me into a hug. which i started crying again. i kept playing the song me and my friend wrote it goes:

knife, blade, razor, rope

can cut your skin and bones

dont do it just think it

knife, blade, razor, rope

yea, so think it jessie, i know its hard. "jessie?" i heard someone calling me but all i can do is think and not say anything "jessie stop, i know what you are doing!!" i still couldnt concentrate.

"what is she doing?" luke asked

"thinking about cutting" zack answered, he knows me to well

"JESSIE STOP PLEASE!!! YOU MAY BE MY TWIN BROTHERS GIRLFRIEND BUT I AM YOUR FRIEND AND YOUR MORE LIKE A SISTER AND PLEASE STOP!" luke said really loudly which made me wake up basically. "sorry.." i whisered and sat in the corner. which luke sat one side and zack sat the other side, i leant on zacks sholder still thinking, this time about the news and i started crying, zack must of known cause i think he mouthed something to luke which made him get up and leave slowly.

"princess?" he said softly cupping my cheeks and whipping the tears away. i then leaned in for a kiss, i needed it. not a full make out but yeah.

"lets take this upstairs" zack said lifting me up. he took me upstairs to his room. where he layed me on the bed and hovered over me, supporting himself on his elbows, he leaned down and kissed me, he then disconnected out lips and trailed down my neck slowly trying to find my sensative spot. which he found. 

10 minutes later

so after our, heated make out session we talked about his cancer, Leukemia, i told him that i was not leaving and yeah.... its oki now i guess

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A/N

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