The Faithless One [EDITING]

Chapter 35

"yeah..." he said resting his head on my shoulder. I've stayed with him for most of the afternoon now. we haven't really talked much, but i don't care he needs me. 

"I'm so sorry" i said, for what felt like the first time but wasn't. i couldn't stop saying it. its like my fault, that i wasn't there when he got this news. 
"stop it Jessie!" he shouted but whispered. 
"i cant, how can i Zack?" i asked annoyed but calmly.
"i don't know, just don't worry about me." he whispered and i was only just able to hear it. this is when he moved his arm around from my shoulder onto his lap and looked at his hands.i picked one up gently and kissed the top. he was just staring at me, whilst i done this. "Can i take you somewhere?" he asked whispering again. 

"Off Course." i said getting up off of the floor, helping Zack up too. 
"you may need a change of clothes, its a bit far away." he said looking at me. i searched his face for emotion and he looked sad, like he was about to cry.
"okay if you drive to my place before we go i can get some." i said, i don't want to ask where we are going until we are there. 
"sure." he simply stated.
"Zack?" i asked before we got our shoes on.
"i don't want us to be over..." I whispered, as a tear escaped and slid down my cheek.
"that's why were not" he said holding my hand. i slipped on my shoes as he had already and walked out the door with him. 
"i love you" i said whispering again.
"i love you princess" he kissed my cheek and got in the drivers side.

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At destination

so we got my clothes from the apartment and i said by to everyone, then went to the destination with Zack. I had no clue where it was or where i am. its a beautiful place though. stunning.

"where are we?" i asked amazed
"i came here with my family before everything happened..." he trailed of. Everything?
"everything?" i asked and with that he handed me a set of post it notes.
"yeah, i think its time you knew me" he said looking at me almost crying. 
"okay, i love you no matter what" i reminded him and sat in the long grass wanting to read this that he gave me.
"i love you too princess, ill wait here for you." he said standing at the wall admiring the reflection.
"okay." i choose a spot to sit at in the long grass as i started reading the post it note. 

i think its time that you found out who i really am...
Jessie, Im Zack Hemmings, Luke Hemmings and Ali hemmings brother. we all came over to America from Australia, same as Michael, Calum and Ashton. My parents all brought us here. We have only been here for about 2 years and we well i love it here, the views are amazing and life now is amazing. now it is. but there is a lot that you dont know and i think you should. i dont really like talking about it much and i thought it would be easier to write it on here for you to read. i hope you understand why.

when i was five, Ali was 10, me and her didnt know what was happening, Luke was with dad on some field trip and me and Ali stayed home with mum. like i said i didnt know what was happeneing and we didnt know what to do. Ali done what was best, called 911, she got the ambulance. we stayed with mum and waited with her until they came. it felt like forever. But they got here. Mum hadnt stopped arching her back and coughing, she was shaking and it was scary at my age then. but me and ali both know what it was now. a fit. mum apparently suffered with small siegers and fits but not this bad. straight away when the paramedics calmed her down they put her on a stretcher and in the ambulace me and ali had to go with her. she was put on a heart monitor, blood pressure monitor and had the injection in her hand. We had done the right thing. but then we were left. when we arrieved at the hospital mum had to go through x-rays scans and everything. but at this point she was in a coma. the hospital had called up dad and he came back with Luke. but after a day of being sat with mum left me, luke and ali in the hospital room. he never came back. he was reported missing. that was until they found his body. hanging in the wardrobe of my old home. i havent been back there since. so now if mum didnt wake up we were orphans. You know that night where i had a bad dream? and was basically fitting in my dream? thats cause it was about mum.... We never left that hospital room until mum woke up. but thats when the beeping was getting quieter on the monitors. on the Heart and Blood pressure monitor, it was getting quieter. i stood in the corner of the room watching the little dots on there jumping up then down. i fell to the ground when it jumped lower and lower. Luke and Ali were sat together on the couch in the room and i was in the corner still. thats when it stopped. i cried out for help and no one came. it was over. Me, Luke and Ali were now orphans. we had no one. 

The hospital had contacted our godparents which happened to be ashtons family, so we moved with them. then when we were 16 we moved here and came to the school/college now. but before that i did get diagnosed with Lukemia. when i was 16, in january i got diagnosed. it is a very bad condition i have and doctors over here have helped. but as you know now, they have said 5 days left. and the hours are counting down. i love you with all my heart jessie and i have something for you. but ill tell you soon. im sorry if i go. but i love you. im so sorry. dont do anything stupid, i will be with you always and i will stay with you. im so sorry.
Zack xxxxxxx

now im crying. they have estimated, 5 days right? hes strong enough. all i keep reminding myself is that he will always be with me. but if he goes how will i survive. 

5 days...................

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