Ink Love (Kaitlyn x Sammy Lawrence)

Chapter 5: Suicide

Warning: This chapter contains a suicide attempt so if you think you might get triggered I'd advise you to skip this chapter and no I'm not mocking suicide orself harm in any way as I suffer from this same problem now that that's out of he way enjoy the chapter-Kaitlyn x

Kaitlyn POV:

I can't do this anymore. I just can't I'm sick of the memories sick of the flasbacks sick of the nightmares. Sick of life. I'm not meant to be alive I never should have exsited even I'm nothing but a mistake. I'm done feeling this way I'm done with cutting myself and starving myself I give up on this cruel world. This has to be done I thought as I finished cutting my wrists for the last time ever. Why is this the last time? you might wonder. Well it's the last time cause I'm done trying to get over this I never will get over it I have to give up. I set the knife down on the floor and went over to my door and locked it. Then I walked over to my bed and reached underneath it I found what I was looking for after a few minutes of looking. I pulled out a rope. I walked to the other side of the room and proceeded to do what I planned on doing with the rope. Once I finished I just fell to the ground and began sobbing uncontrollably. "I'm so sorry for this Sammy and Alice I simply can't do it anymore you guys were both the best friends I could ever have especially you Sammy if only you knew how I felt about you I'm sorry for this" I said quietly so no one would hear. "Kaitlyn? Are you okay in there?" Sammy asked from the other side of the door. I didn't bother answering him instead I walked over to the chair in the corner of my room and dragged it over to where I had tied the rope. 

"Kaitlyn are you-Don't do it please!" Sammy shouted he started kicking at the door trying to get it open.

I stood on the chair and tied the rope around my neck. "I'm sorry Sammy and I'm sorry Alice" I whispered before I lifted my feet off the chair and it fell to the ground.

I don't know how long I was hanging there for but I couldn't breath and soon felt like I was going to black out before Sammy managed to break the door open.

"Kaitlyn No! he yelled as he ran to where I was hanging and untied the rope around my neck.

Sammy sat down on the ground holding me close to him. I started gasping for air. Sammy held me even tighter until my breathing got back to normal. I passed out soon in his arms.

Sammy POV:

I heard Kaitlyn sobbing in her room as I walked by so I stopped to see if she was okay. "Kaitlyn are you okay in there?" I asked.No answer. I heard Kaitlyn dragging what sounded like a chair across the room though. Was she going to actually...? No she wouldn't do that right? I thought. I tried opening the door but it was locked. 

"Kaitlyn are you-Don't do it please! I yelled kicking at the door trying to get it open.

I heard the chair fall to the ground.She actually did it. I managed to get the door open a few minutes later I found Kaitlyn just hanging there when I entered her room.

"Kaitlyn No! I yelled as I ran to where she was hanging. I grabbed her and untied the rope around her neck. I sat down on the floor holding her close to me. She statrted gasping for air and I tightned my hold on her until her breathing returned back to normal. I was afraid of losing her. She passed out a few seconds later.

I carried her to her bed and laid her down on it I pulled the covers up over her. That's when I realized I really did love her. It sounds so weird but I do love her very much. When she wakes up I will tell her how I feel I hope she won't hate me for it though..