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14. Second Thoughts

I knocked on Nathan's door, taking a step back and waiting for him to open it. A few moments passed by before the door opened, revealing a slightly disheveled Nathan. He didn't say anything but moved to the side, allowing me to enter the house. He closed the door behind me and we walked towards his room. It was our first study session in weeks, seeing as though both of us were really busy.

We sat down on his bed and I pulled out my books, waiting for him to do the same. He still hadn't said a single word and I was getting worried. "Are you okay?" He nodded but I wasn't convinced. I had known this boy since I was 5. He couldn't lie to me this easily. I decided to let it go for the time being and helped him jot down some notes.

I was trying to explain the lesson to him for the past half an hour but it was clear his mind was somewhere else. He wasn't paying attention to what I was saying at all. "Nate, are you listening?" He snapped out of his trance and looked at me. "Yeah." I raised my eyebrows at him. "Really? What was I just talking about?" He bit his lip. "Something about the laws of motion?"

I shook my head disappointedly. "Where is your mind Nathan? Because it isn't in this room with me. What's going on?" He opened his mouth to say something but I cut him off. "And please don't say nothing. You know I know you better than that." He sighed and avoided my eyes. We sat there in silence as I looked at him, waiting for him to answer my question. "Grace and I broke up." I audibly gasped, then covered my mouth with my hand.

I seriously couldn't believe it. Last time I talked to Nathan, he told me that they were serious and he was sure he was in love. To say that what he said surprised me was an understatement. I never in a million years would have thought that Nate and Grace would break up before Jake and I did. So before I could stop myself, the words slipped out of my mouth. "Why did you break up? You guys were so good together." He visibly winced at my words, showing me that he was still accepting it as well.

I mentally slapped myself for not being careful and chose my next words thoughtfully. "Do you want to talk about it?" He shook his head. "Honestly, no. I think talking about it is just going to make me feel worse rather than better." I nodded understandingly before an idea popped into my head. I quickly stood up and grabbed his arm, dragging him behind me.

"Liv, can you tell me where we're going?" I paid him no heed and continued walking till we reached his living room. I pushed him onto the couch and walked towards the DVD cabinet, a smile coming to mt lips as I found what I was looking for. I plopped the DVD inside and took a seat next to Nathan as the first episode of F.R.I.E.N.D.S. started playing. Nathan smiled at me knowingly and wrapped an arm around my shoulders.
F.R.I.E.N.D.S. was our go to TV show whenever one of us was upset. It always used to lift up our moods no matter why we were upset. We settled comfortably on the couch, planning on going through as many seasons as we could before his parents came home.

We were on the third season when the door opened. I pressed pause and looked over my shoulder to see Nathan's parents coming in. They spotted me and smiled widely and I returned the gesture. "Olivia, it's so good to see you." Even though Nate and I had study sessions at his house before, we used to have them when his parents weren't home. "It's good to see you too." We talked for a while and it was good to catch up. We used to have family dinners with the Walkers all the time when we were young and so Sophia and Lance were like second parents to me.

I looked at the time and realized I needed to get home. "I should go. Mom's probably waiting for me." The Walkers exchanged looks among themselves before Sophia spoke up. "Why don't you stay for dinner? I'll call Emily. I'm sure she won't mind." I thought about it for a while. She wasn't wrong. My mom wouldn't mind. I looked at Nathan who nodded at me. "Alright. I guess I can stay."

And so I had dinner with Nathan and his parents. It brought back a lot of memories and it seemed to take Nathan's mind off Grace. In the back of my mind, I was still wondering what had happened. But it was clear that Nathan did not want to talk about it and so I didn't push it. He would tell me when he was ready but it didn't seem like they ended it on good terms. Whatever had happened, it was probably for the best. My eyes widened as the realisation hit me. A small part of me, a teeny-tiny part that I hated, was happy that Nathan and Grace broke up. I was so sure that I was completely over him. But at that moment I only had one thought in my mind

Did I still have feelings for Nathan?

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