Still Falling For You | ✓

22. Choices

"What?" He brushed past me to get inside as I stared at the door with my mouth agape. "Nathan, no. What are you talking about? You're in love with Grace." I turned around to face him, grateful that nobody was home. "I thought so too, but I was thinking about it and I realised that you're the one who's always been there for me, Liv." He ran a hand through his hair and I walked towards the living room, him following closely behind. I asked him to take a seat but he put a hand up, shaking his head.

"Just listen. Please." I sighed and waited for him to continue. "We've been friends for so long and I mean, you've seen me at my best as well as my worst. Olivia, some of my best memories are with you. You know everything about me and I know everything about you. We share so much in common and I don't know how I didn't see this before but I do have feelings for you Liv." He placed back and forth during his rant and I was rendered speechless. What was I supposed to say to that?

"Nate, you're not thinking straight right now. You don't mean this." He stopped and faced me, his hand coming to rest on my cheek. I mentally cursed myself for leaning onto his touch, but I just couldn't help it. "I know what I'm saying Liv and I mean it. I'm sorry for not realising this when you confessed, I'm sorry for putting you through that and I'm sorry for throwing all of this on you."

His tone softened and so did his eyes. "You don't have to answer me now Olivia. Just think about it, okay? Take as much time as you need and then come and talk to me. I'll see you later." He smiled at me and leaned in to place a kiss on my forehead before pulling away completely, his touch still lingering on my cheek. I jumped slightly and snapped out of my trance when I heard the door shut and fell on the couch.

My head hurt from all that was happening. First, Jacob saying he loved me and then Nathan saying he had feelings for me. To be honest, I was already over the thought that he would feel the same way and so, it was a bit of a shock. How was I supposed to feel? I mean, I had wanted this since I was 14 years old. But definitely not like this. Not when I had a boyfriend. I went to the kitchen and quickly chugged down a glass of water.

I pulled out my phone, scrolling down as my finger lingered over Madison's contact. I knew that if I told Madison what had happened, she would yell at me for even thinking about leaving Jacob for Nathan. She was my shoulder to cry on when Nathan turned me down and she knew how much it had hurt me. I needed an unbiased opinion. I scrolled back up and clicked on Aiden's contact. "Hey Aid. Could you please come over?" He agreed and I ended the call.

We knew each other well enough to know when something was wrong and I was pretty sure he could tell something had happened just by listening to my voice. I was seriously so grateful for my friends. About 15 minutes passed by before the bell rang and I opened the door for the third time that day. Aiden came in and shut the door behind him. He followed me into the living room as we both took a seat on the couch.

"What's wrong Liv?" I ran a hand through my hair. "Where do I start? I swear I feel like my head's going to explode." He placed a comforting hand on my thigh and I smiled gratefully at him. I told him everything. Right from helping Nathan after his break up, Jacob's confession to Nathan's confession. I stopped my rant and looked at Aiden to see he was already staring at me, his eyes wide and his mouth slightly open.

"Wow! There's so much going on in your life and I'm hearing about this now?" I shook my head at him playfully. "I didn't have time to tell you." He chuckled as I joined in and we both started laughing at how dramatic my life had become. "Do you have any idea what you're going to do?" The air became tense again as I realised I had to make a decision soon. "I don't know. I mean on one hand, I really really like Jacob and I'm happy with him, I truly am. But on the other hand, it's Nathan." I sighed, my eyes falling to the ground. "I don't know how else to explain this. I've wanted to be with Nathan since I was thirteen. When I finally got the courage to tell him, h said he didn't feel the same way and then he distanced himself from me for two years. Then he came back but fell in love with Grace and when I was finally ready to get over him and be with Jacob, he's saying he has feelings for me? How does that make sense?"

It was all so overwhelming. My feelings were all over the place. "Do you still like Nathan?" I bit my lip and thought about it. "I think I've always had feelings for him. Even before I realised them and even after I thought I was over him." Aiden pulled me into his chest and I happily obliged, feeling the need to be comforted.

"I know you're confused Liv. But right now, you need to stop thinking with your brain and start listening to your heart. I can't tell you who to chose because that's your decision to make. All I can tell you is that you deserve happiness so just think about who you'll be happier with." His hand rubbed up and down my back, calming me down. "Just remember that no matter what you decide, we'll always be there to support you."

He was right. I had to listen to my heart but my heart was even more confused than I was. I had a very difficult decision to make and all I could hope for was that I would make the right one.

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