Scarlet Shadows || Kaisoo

Chapter 10 | Save Me

"Jongin?"
I knew it was him.
I fucking just knew it.
The silence hanging in the air felt heavier than ever and my mind was trying to contemplate a million things at once.
It's Kim Jongin in pain.
I wanted to run away and hide. Run away from him for every time I was ever confronted by him I just ended up getting hurt, every time I tried making him look at me, I got pushed away, everytime I tried to fucking get him out of my mind, he didn't budge--I wanted to run away.
But fuck, I couldn't budge an inch now.
I couldn't decipher what I was feeling. I couldn't do anything but I just stood there, too scared to touch him yet too afraid to leave him lying in the darkness. My body just stood still, like the placid waters; waiting to rage.
The fear was too real now that the whole world around me was spinning and all the twisted up thoughts I had just started draining out of me.
Rage.
I instantly knelt down next to him and noticed how much of a wreck he was. Bloodied knuckles, a bruised face, and bloodshot eyes that were so full of life, so full of neediness and help, so unlike Jongin. He was so vulnerable and raw, it was almost unreal.
"Ky..kyungsoo" he whisper, coughing up blood.
And for that one split second, there wasn't any bullshit spark or anything, but there was life. There was a Jongin that was more than the rude asshole he usually is. There was a silent cry for help, a need for comfort, a thought to trust. There was the first sensibility.

I couldn't take him to the infirmary either, because the wounds were too rough edged and they'd create a fuss about it, so I just took him home.
Wow what am I going to tell mom can I just die
KRYSTAL.
She lives alone wow I've just gotten lucky.

"Hey Krys? I've got a bloody Jongin with me.."
"Oh god what now, you pabo"
I explained everything and well she.."Ugh I'll just live at Reese's"
"You know you can just stay with us, Krys~"
"And look at all the shit you guys do? No thanks Kyung"
Well okay whatever.
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Jongin snorts when he sleeps.
He was almost unconscious when I got him home, and fell right asleep after I'd fixed him up a little. The sunlight fell on his hair, and his eyelashes quivered to the sudden light. His nose scrunched up a little and he had a frown on his face. Instinctively, he pulled up the blanket to his face and I just sat there smiling like a fucking idiot.
He twisted and turned and finally was awake. The sunshine made his pitch black eyes look almost ash, and though he looked tired, with split, bloody lips and a messy hair, man he looked like a full meal what am I even- "What the fuck are you doing here?!" He screamed just as he got up.
I cleared my throat, "Uh please what are you doing here?"
I just left him in silence, wow the art of actually not responding to someone and being rude is actually really comforting.
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I made him some breakfast and went up to his room. Just when I was about keep it aside and wake him up again because he loves faking it, he suddenly turned his face to mine god how red am I right now? Our faces were so close to each other and I almost froze. His endlessly empty eyes were almost too strong a gaze for me and I knew I was being pulled into it. I could smell the tincture I'd used to clean up his wounds, I could feel his breath tickling my skin and for the first time in forever, I realized how truly beautiful he looks, from his hair that is disheveled, to- "CAN YOU LIKE STOP LYING ON ME I'M A SICK MAN" he screamed and I was snapped back to my senses.
"I-I wasn't lying on you!" I snapped back, to retaliate.
"Oh but you were staring at me like I had a nip-slip"
This boy..
"I made breakfast. It sucks I know but just eat it. Not like I'm obliged to make you good food anyway" I snorted and was about to leave.
"Where you going?" His voice held me back.
"Nowhere. " I blatantly replied.
"Then just stay here, with me." He smirked.
Okay time to go haywire.
"I-" he began
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Long ass chapter but next is gonna be neomu areumdaon areumdaon areumdaon:)
-authornim