Scarlet Shadows || Kaisoo

Chapter 20 | What U Do

"Kyungsoo?"
"Jongin, you're hurting me." I winced, wow why does he have so much strength for sometime who's supposed to be sick!
He pulled me closer to him, a placidity spread on his face and his grip on my hand loosened.
"I'm- I'm sorry, what did I do? I can't remember properly"
What did I do? Why is he acting like he doesn't remember what he just did or how violent he was,, or maybe he really doesn't?*
"You did nothing, Jongin." I smiled at him, pushing his hair back. "I love you." I said, after placing a kiss on his forehead.
He pinched my cheeks, "I love you the most though." and gave me the brightest smile I've seen this week.
I wish it's always like this, zero problems, hassle free, and you know, just two young men in love. It's hard, you know being 18 and going through so much of bullshit that's probably the most difficult thing to understand. Whomsoever said that calculus was hard to comprehend, my, you're open to walk in my shoes.
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I was just midway through Sense and Sensibility when my alarm went off. It was half past twelve, and it was Jongin's lunch time. I looked up to see what he was upto, and all I could see was a beautiful, subtle smile. The sunlight that was gleaming in through the window traced his profile, and my, the boy was poppin'.
What language am I even using, tumblr.,really.
His black hair was a mess, and fell on his eye, which was undoubtedly art. Honestly he was just so beautiful, I couldn't stop staring at him.

My snooze went off for the 3rd time, and Jongin slowly fluttered his eyes open. His black eyes gazed at me and I instinctively got up and sat beside him.
"How long have I been off for?"
"Just 4 hours. You've to eat now, let me get you something."
He whined like a small baby(which is what he is) the cuteness I might just die. "I don't want anything to eat except..," he winked.
Okay Jesus take the fucking wheel.
My heart was beating out of my chest, as he moved his face closer to mine, nuzzled against my cheek, and whispered, "anything to eat except this" and pinched my cheeks again. Fuckfuck why does he have to be so boyfriend right now of all times
Blood gushed to my cheeks and I buried my face into my palms, why does he have to even do this kinda fluffy shit to me god.
I ran out to get something for him more like I ran for my life.

Jongin's POV

I heaved a sigh of relief right after Kyungsoo left the room. Thank the lords that I slept for 4 hours or the effect of what Sehun tried would've seriously screwed Kyungsoo over. I'm so fucking scared. So fucking scared of Sehun, of Sehun..,who was one of the most important people in my life from day one.. He's, I get it we did a mistake, but god he's not even letting it go.. it's so stressful and I feel like Atlas. I need to play it safe, I need to think of ways to stop any bullshit from happening, I need to protect Kyungsoo, I need to be ready to sacrifice, and I need to stand up to Sehun..but how.?
I can't hide it from Kyungsoo for that long, anyway.*
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I picked up something edible enough for Jongin and found myself walking in on him in deep thoughts. He seemed super dazed, his eyes fixed on the opposite wall, his eyebrows knitted together and his lips pursed.
I walked up to him, "Jongin? Jongin!" I shook him by the shoulders.
"Is there something bothering you?"
"No absolutely nothing, is my food here?" His spirits lifted up (¿so soon¿)
I placed the food on the table kind of thing they have in hospitals, and took my seat next to the windowsill.

I'd finished about 10 pages when I looked up to see if he'd finished eating and all he did was stare at my like he was burning holes through me. I stood up and obviously my decibel increased, god this thing I have when I panic. "Why aren't you eating!?" I whined.
He pouted.
"Jongin, can you please eat?"
"Kyungsoo, can you please feed me the food?"
Can I fucking cry this man.
I sat next to him and he obliged, promptly opening his mouth for food.

Out of nowhere, "Kyungsoo?"
"Hmmm?"
"You know if we think about it, you've never called me names, called me anything nice. It's always Jongin this, Jongin this. Why are you being such an uninteresting boyfie?" He smirked.
I talked back, "Oh like you have. You keep saying Kyungsoo all the time, so don't even try pacifying or anything."
"Kyungsooooooooo" he squealed, you know that typical I'm-going-to-do-aegyo-be-ready-to-cringe kinda voice.
"Kyungieeeeeeee, Soooooo Soooooo, You're such a bubbb" he squealed all sorts of cringey things and bopped my nose atleast a hundred times. God he was super cute but he was too over cute and I started feeling nauseous at a point.
"Okay I'm done now you're turn."
"I'm sure you did enough for me. I-" I tried dodging his plea in all ways possible.
With Kim Jongin? Impossible.
"Jongin--Jonginnie~" I said with great difficulty. It was so hard to find my voice. Being cute is like a punishment, its so stressful and puts too much weight on your heart.
He gave me a wide smile,. "Call me baby." [a/n pls the reference is so cringe so just die y'all they're cute asf]
"..Baby" I barely whispered, because first, it was so embarrassing and unnecessary and unexplained. And second I honestly thought I'd die because I felt so sick in the stomach oh my.
"You're so cute when you say things like that, baby soo." He said. Baby soo ah, um, what the actual hell is this.
It's not like I don't like fluff but THIS much fluff will most definitely just kill me.
I just nodded, because I pretty much had it figured. I was as red as a tomato, my cheeks would've probably swollen up. I tried to calm down. (impossible again)

I was finally over with the cringe attack thing, phew! Jongin gulped dowm some water, and suddenly took my hand,.closer to his heart.
"Kyungsoo."
"Yes?"
"I-"
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A/N my life is a huge pothole good luck my lovelies
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