Scarlet Shadows || Kaisoo

Chapter 17 | Love Me Right¿

It was the weekend and I felt more excited than ever. Not like my weekends have anything interesting anytime, but still you know what I'm trying to say, right?
Jongin had texted me last night saying that we're going out today(?) or I'm assuming we are because all that he said was "I'm picking you up at 10. Wear something light." Not like I have heavy clothes, I practically live in THE same jeans so.,,
It was half past 9 and my adrenaline was pumping. I never was into makeup anyway like Baekhyun, oh my he can't sleep without putting on his eyeliner! I'm too lazy to do all that and well you know what I find most embarrassing about makeup? It's the fact that if it comes off a little, or if you're an amateur like me and you're really bad at stuff like this, you could potentially end up looking like a Drag Queen.
However, I wanted to kinda dress up for him? Not like I wanted to look 'pretty' for him, but I wanted him to feel nice about having me as his boyfriend. As it is, I'm a sloth and I don't have half as much as visuals as Jongin, in spite of all that if I don't put in an effort I'm actually going to look worse than trash.

I sat in front of my really dusty mirror and realized that Ive never actually looked at myself in the mirror,,well with that said, I've always had this huge insecurity(?) about how I look to people. In the sense, I know I have some real good features, like my eyes and my smile are to die for, nevertheless, I always feel a little less than even my own standards(which are pretty high, as you can see) and always feel incomplete. Maybe that's why I never bothered to look in to the mirror,, my hair was always a mess and I paired the most indifferent colors together.

Not today ha
I was quite determined to look look able today, so I took out this really really rich ass ripped black jeans that I got like a year back with my mom constantly telling me to wear it only on special occasions.
I tried it on and,,,well, it was a little tight around my ass, but whatever.
I paired it with a really light pink tee and a jacket because it was kinda cold outside. And yeah, I slicked my hair back against my usual style(which is basically, never combing it) and damn I must say, I did actually look nice for once, I looked like a kpop star, not.

It was 10:01 and the doorbell rung. The man has his own ideals damn. My mom knew I was going out without Jongin the classmate but not Jongin the boyfriend god I hope he doesn't go all out there with his big mouth.
I ran downstairs just to see Jongin already seated comfortably and conversing with my parents like wow he can replace me anyday with that kind of talking.

I cleared my throat and my eyes met Jongin's. And that very instant I felt I didn't do enough to stand next to him,, he stunned me every single time I wonder how he does it. He looked much more placid and beautiful today, he looked like a simpleton for once, a plaided shirt and jeans and look at me oh god the tables have turned.
His eyes softened a bit and I went and stood next to him as he stood up to leave. His hand clasped mine behind our backs, and he bent down, "Why do you look extra beautiful today?" and gave me his signature smirk.

OkAY yoU STOP RIGHT THERE.

Blood ran to my cheek and I would've fainted if my mom's voice didn't boom through the room. What does he think about himself, randomly throwing compliments like this?! I bit my inner cheek for stopping myself from smiling as we walked out of the door.

He stopped in his steps and leaned on a pillar outside the door. I leaned on the opposite one and looked at him to see him already staring down on me my death day is today. I gave him a smile and licked my lips. My lips and my throat were going dry but I somehow found my voice and barely managed to say, "You look amazing."
He leaped forward, inches away from me and said, "What? I didn't hear you." and made me repeat it almost 3 times, what an asshole.
He asked me for the fourth time and I launched my fists at him, he stopped both of my fists and wrapped my hands around his waist, and stared straight into my soul and said, "Aren't we gonna leave?" and pulled back.

Well honestly I expected something deer and fluffy and he had to trample my expectations like that.

We rode downtown to an amusement park, oh my god yes I've been wanting to go for such a long time but I never went because Krys was too scared to ride any of them and going alone is just...sad.
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I got an angel hairband and he got the devil, its kind of true in reality too, so I don't see much of a difference anyway. He held my hand throughout, and he was slightly scared of the rides because he held my hand extra firmer and I felt good. I felt good that he could lean on me if he felt scared, mock me around and be himself with me.
We went into a photo booth, you know those instant polaroid kinda ones and took pictures.
While we were out, waiting for the fireworks, he led me closet to the railing and we were staring out into the sea, waiting for the fireworks to burst out.
"Thank you for reaching out to me." came his small voice, he wasn't looking at me, but was staring into space, his hands twisting constantly.
"Thank you for trusting me even though I have so much secrets that you don't know. I'll tell you one day, Kyungsoo. Because you're the only person whom I trust right now. Thank you for loving me even when you know what kind of a monster I can be." He finished and took my hand.
For that one instant, I was glad that I believed in him, I am glad that I love him, probably more than anybody could ever love him. I stood on my toes and gave him a big fat hug, and we stood like that for a long time before he pulled away,

I love you.

His lips touched mine, and I could hear the fireworks in the background. My lips moulded with his, his hands wrapped around my hip and mine around his neck. I kissed him back, satisfied and happy, and we pulled away and smiled at each other.

I love you too.

We rode back home and Sehun was sitting across my dad, oh yeah, he texted me saying he had some important project to finish and needed help. Jongin's face changed quicker than a wave at motion.
I asked both of them to wait upstairs so that I could get them some coffee.
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Hot coffee splattered down on the floor, I fell short of my steps, and met Jongin's eyes, but this time, covered with lies and anger as he broke away from Sehun's hold.
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GUYS SO SORRY FOR LATE UPDATE BUT HAPPY KYUNGSOO DAY MY FAM❤, YOU GUYS ARE THE BEST!
For Kyungsoo day, Kai day and Kaisoo week, here's a very long and fluffy(not) chapter!
-authornim