Scarlet Shadows || Kaisoo

Chapter 12 | Unstoppable

It's about to go down.
I jolted awake and the room was a mess. Broken glass lined the floor like a bed of thorns, the place reeked of blood, and everything looked so indescribably nasty that my OCD started kicking in.
Jongin.
I sat upright and noticed him sprawled next to the broken mirror. I tried lifting myself up, but the pain pulled me down. Nevertheless, I crawled across the room and turned him over.
Oh my.
A faint line of blood had lined his right cheek, almost as if he cried blood. His forehead was all wrinkled up and his hands had shards of glass pricking him all over. He looked pathetic. He looked so fucking pathetic that I felt like shit for letting this happen.
His shirt was torn a little, and blood had blotted his white shirt exactly in his shoulder blades..so the wings were snapped or..what?
His face looked so bloody calm yet so worried and sad and lonely. His lips were split and his neck and the little of his exposed chest had scratches, almost as if someone had clawed him.
I'm almost a 100% sure that no one would've come here because if they did then there's Krys to notify me, which means, he harmed himself?
But why?
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Looking at him made me realize how fucking much I love him. It's way more than being obsessed with him. It's way more than being infatuated with him. It's way more than just having slight feels for him.
It's just that I love him that every second I am with him it hurts more than anything would ever hurt. Uninvited tears stung at the back of my eyes as I wiped off that blood-tear down his cheek.
I let my thumb stroke his cheek, and leaned in, "Jongin?"
I lost count of how many times I'd said his name, but he didn't flinch. The feelings were almost unstoppable. I felt not like the whole world was coming to an end, but felt like a fucking idiot for letting all this happen right in front of my fucking eyes.
With all the strength I could muster, I pulled him up and let his head rest on my lap. I ran my hand through his hair and for a minute, I thought to myself, how precious he actually is, and how that even if he's being a rude son of a bitch, I'd still want him.
My mind went on a rewind and thought of all the times when he never even used to acknowledge me, when I used to adapt to everything he did, eat the things he liked, read the manga he was obsessed with, and did almost everything that he liked because I wanted him to notice me, to now, Kim Jongin, the man I love so much, lying in my arms, unconscious and hurt. Wow such an achievement Kyungsoo.
All the sadness just poured in and I started raining tears down my cheeks, and screamed till my heart would've actually burst out. "JONGIN!" I shook him and his lips quivered. I went in closer and whispered, "Jongin?"
His eyes barely opened before I cocooned him with my arms. He didn't try to speak, he didn't push me away, he didn't do anything. I pulled away, my hand intertwined with his and nothing but silence. happened. He looked straight into my eyes and and for once, his eyes had only me in them.
None of us spoke for a long time. Our intertwined hands stayed intertwined and both of us didn't pull away from each other's gaze. There wasn't any butterflies or houseflies or whatever crap but it was just, something you know? Like it was some sort of a weird thing eh I don't know anymore.
After a looooooong silence he said, with a very small voice,
"I'm sorry."
I was not expecting that wow damn.
"Wow, the infamous Kim Jongin can say sorry too~" I said, god my desperate attempts to liven it up.
His lips curved into a sad smile and he gave me nod.
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I somehow made him lie back down, and sat beside him. With a cotton swab, I bent closer to clean off the last of the blood left, and I could feel his heavy breathing howling in my ear. I tried looking at him from the corner of my eye, snap! He caught me looking at him and grabbed my wrist with which I was trying to clean?..
Our faces was so close and my palms were getting so sweaty god why
"Trying to steal glances at me for what?" He whispered into my ear, his breath tickling my skin.
"I- I was just seeing-" he silenced me with his finger on my lips good heavens what the actual fuck is happening
"I know." he said, like he knew???
I stared back at him and his grip on my hand loosened. Phew. I moved back but he retreated faster isn't he a bit hurt goddamn it*
My torso was almost on his and the same hand that gripped my wrist was now holding my face.
fuck fuck fuck fuckety fuckery fuck
Now I started feeling all the butterfly bullshit oh my god
He pulled my face closer and stroked my cheeks, and whispered, "Thank you." before his lips touched mine, perfectly moulding together. He brought my hand over his chest and intertwined our fingers before breaking away from the softest kiss I've ever had ohmygod ohmygod ohmygod ohmygod ohmygod
He placed a peck on my forehead and sucked in a breath, "Erm, Kyungsoo.."
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Dear Diary,

KIM JONGIN KISSED ME KIM JONGIN KISSED ME KIM JONGIN KISSED ME ARE YOU LISTENING

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*What do you think it's pointing out tho
and the plot twists begin:)
-authornim x