My Best Friend || kth

15 - Accepting

The funeral was held.

I wish this was just a nightmare.

I wanted to wake up so much.

Our family and friends came over, My Classmates and Mr. HaN Yi An were there too.

Jungkook gave me a slight smile but I just stared.

Mom was so strong, She greeted everyone and smiled at me everytime she saw me glancing at her. 

I was quiet the whole time.. I didn't speak to anyone, I was just there, bidding farewell to my Dad.. Who I was never going to see ever again..

I really don't know how I am supposed to go on. I was mad everytime I think about how he did not spend his last days with Mom and I.. I wanted to blame everything on someone else but it was nobody's fault. I was so hurt to the point where I hated everyone. I wanted to get this over with.

After the cremation was done,  I went up to my room and just slept. 

I wanted to forget everything.

I'm tired.I'm angry.I'm Sad.I want to disappear.

Memories of my dad keep flashing in my mind. I miss him. I still needed him so much. I wanted to hear him calling me again. 

I fell asleep crying and I woke up to the sound of people starting their car engines to go home.. Closed ones were still there. I could hear Mom calling Hilda to help her serve Tea. I didn't have the energy to see anyone or be with anyone. I know it was selfish of me to leave mom alone but I guess some things just hit you too hurt and too sudden.

How can someone who was a part of your whole life.. Just be not there anymore?

Moments later.. Jungkook came up to my room..

Jungkook: Hey..

Mimi: Hi..

Jungkook: I asked your mom for permission...

Mimi: It's okay.. come in..

He sat on the side of the bed beside me.

Jungkook: TaeRin.. I am really sorry..

Mimi: It's just so sudden.. I don't know how to feel.. It's just..

I started sobbing again.. Jungkook hugged me as I buried my face in his chest and cried. He just hugged me.. Hugged me tight and patted my back telling me everything was going to be fine..

I got myself together and wiped my tears.

Mimi: I'm sorry I didn't mean to.

Jungkook: Cry as much as you want TaeRin.. I really don't know what I should be doing to comfort you but just call me everytime you need me.. Mm?

I nodded my head.. Hilda came up too.

Jungkook had to leave as he got a call from his Dad.. He left promising to come again as soon as possible.

Hilda: How are you feeling?

Mimi: I really don't know..

Hilda: I'll be staying with you guys for a while..

Mimi: What would I do without you...

Hilda: You know.. Taehyung came at the funeral today..

Mimi: He did?

Hilda: Mm.. But he didn't stay long. He told me he couldn't face you.

Mimi: Why? I wanted to see him..