Life of being Logan Paul's sister///Zach Herron

Love

Wow. 

Love is just...

Amazing. 

But it can also be a pain in the butt.

I really miss Zach, but we haven't talked recently.

Which makes me want to cry all day.

Thank goodness I have Logan, Amber, and Abi to keep me sane.

Especially Amber. She's been helping me a lot.

I was currently in the Yeti with Logan, Brendan, and Amber.

Logan had his camera out and was talking to it. Until he decided to put the camera on me.

"Hey Jessicaaaaaa!" He said in an annoying voice

"HEYYYY LOGGGAAAAAANNNN!" I yelled

He jumped and I laughed at him. 

Brendan said, "My ears are ringing." 

I laughed and so did Amber.

"You'll get used to it." Amber said

"No one asked you AMBER." Logan said jokingly

She laughed. Logan cut off the camera.

Then I got a call from Daniel.

"Daniel is calling me!" I announced

I answered it.

"Hey Daniel. What's up?" I said

"Hey. Nothing." He said

"You haven't talked to me in a while. Especially Zach." I said

"Yeah. Sorry about that." He said

"It's fine. I know that all of you are busy and stuff." I said awkwardly

Daniel laughed.

"Oh yeah. I almost forgot to tell you something." He said in a nervous tone.

"What is it?" I asked

"Zach and that Morgan girl are like... really close. Like, too close to comfort. I asked Zach if there was anything going between them and he said no. So I just wanted to tell you that." 

I could feel jealousy creep inside of me. I could feel tears stinging my eyes.

"Oh. Okay." I said

"You okay?" He asked

I tried to not let my emotions take over me.

"Yep. I just... have to go. Bye." I said

I hung up before he said anything back.

Amber nudged me.

I looked over to her.

She mouthed, you okay?

I nodded.

The rest of the ride was silent.

We were back at our new home. 

Amber was taking a shower, while I was sitting on my bed. Thinking about what Daniel told me.

I just broke down crying. 

I felt useless.

Hopeless.

Worthless.

I heard the water turn off so I stopped crying.

I got under the covers, wiped my tears, and acted like I was sleeping.

The word love popped in my head again.

Does Zach love me?

I know I love him.

Love is hard.

You want to give the person you love anything in the world. Even if it hurts you.

That's how I feel.

Your heart aches without your lover.

Love.

I can't stop thinking about Zach.

Would he cheat on me?

I don't know anymore.

I felt sad, but more than sad.

Depressed?

No.

My emotions are just too much.

So I fell asleep.