Maybe You Should Leave Now (Fifth Art Book)

Vent

Aye, AGAIN sorry for being SO inactive, school and social stuff is hectic (why this chapter is going to exist. I'm not leaving don't worry!)

I just need somewhere that's no time CRAWLING with people I know to vent out some stuff 

I feel so, so, so alone

I don't have a single friend who actually supports anything I do in real life.

I'm sorry. That sounds like an exaduration. I wish it was. I'm not being dramatic. Again, I wish I was.

I have friends, of course. But lately there been no one I can turn to for anything other than a light conversation 

even my best friend frustrates me. So many insults, all the time.

"You wanna cut your hair short? Really short? You'd look terrible."

"You're irritating me, stop being so logical"

"Oh, you? You're SO annoying. Her? Not so much"

Don't get me wrong I love her. But it gets old, having someone exactly what they think of you every second of the day, most of it not so encouraging.

I try so hard to be nice, to show her kindness where she gives me pain. I'm just afraid I'll blow up soon.

She's the only person who I talk to on a daily basis.

If she leaves, I'm alone. For real.

Alone sitting in the corner of the cafeteria, silently.

I miss talking to Pawhex, my old best friend.

I don't know if she's on Wattpad anymore under the name syrupsibi or candyhyena or anything anymore, but she's on Instagram as Pawhex if any of you actually wanna know who I'm talking about

We used to always have a conversation topic, always hang out, it was a mutual friendship. A healthy one. She never put me down and I never put her down. I miss her. So much. 

She didn't move, and is still at my school and In my grade, just made more friends. 

And I thought I had made just as many, or at least one good one, but yet I find myself with no motivation to do anything but listen to the music I feel is the only thing close to an understanding and comforting friend that I have. 

Now it's too late. I lost her, I miss her, she's gone. 

But whatever, its fine! It'll all blow over, it'll be fine right? No worries 

Haven't been drawing  much, but hey, here's some pictures of my geckooo