Reddie spaghetti fanfic [COMPLETE]

Ice cold tears part19

TRIGGER WARNING: self harm

Richies pov
I honestly don't remember the last time I saw ANY of the Losers club. Stan  -who holds the group together-  attempted to have me come with them to the barrens, but I had continued to refuse. It was already February 3... that's the two month anniversary of when Eddie and I broke up. I haven't spoken to him since, in fact I haven't even gone to school since then. I don't really see a reason in trying anymore.... Even stan gave up on me, and stopped asking if I wanted to hang out with the fellow losers. *knock knock* I jump, startled from the sudden noise. I get up from where I lay besides my bed, tired... my father home already? As I was about to open the door it swung open and there stood all of the losers club. "H-H-HI R-RI-RICHIE!" Bill yells as he holds out a cupcake with one candle placed in it. I gave a weak laugh looking at all my friends. I look at bill, his smooth brown hair, and his beautiful eyes nervously starring at me with ever move I make. I move to stan, who was clinging onto Bill silently repeating something in his mind... Stan looked distracted, and worried. Next Mike, who was looking around my room with his normal smile on. I peer right behind mike and there stands Ben and Beverly chatting away... not even realizing I'm there. Usual them I guess. Finally I looked at Eddie. He stood in the very back, and I almost didn't see him if it wasn't for his rainbow shorts. He stood silently, staring at the floor holding his hands behind himself, and moving back and forward on his foot and tip toe.  "Hey guys" I say weakly, steading myself by grabbing onto stans shoulder. I shook him and he immediately grabbed onto my, releasing Bills arm. "S-sorry" I say quietly, and Eddie looks at me nervously... he probably knows something's wrong. As stan look at me and responds with "No it's fine" he stars at my new bruises. "You have more..." he adds in, slowly dragging out the more. And bill looks at the floor. This caught Ben and BEVS. Attention, and I know because Beverly jumped and scurried her way over to me to give me a big hug. For a second I stood awkwardly, saying as I hadn't had actual caressing physical contact in over two months... but eventually I hugged her back, making her hug me tighter. After a couple minutes she lets go, and my face shoots to Ben's who despite the fact that I'm struggling, he looked upset that we hugged for so long. He must have noticed me staring because he smiled and looked away involuntarily. I beckon them into my room and Stan is the only one who pauses before entering. Eddie walks in with ease, but his eyes dart towards the closet, then to the window. He friends, making me frown involuntarily. I look away from him. After about an hour of talking I realize Eddie went to the bathroom awhile ago... this made me slightly nervous, so I just told the others I had to pee. As I close my door behind me I reach out the couple of inches to knock on the door lightly... no answer. I frown and grab the key which his under the carpet that led down the stairs. I open the door quickly and see Eddie in the corner of the room... I hadn't realized before that Eddie had long sleeves... I started to panic and I bolted over to him, prying the blade out of him hands. He's crying hard and I'm tearing up uncontrollably. I sit down next to him and he turns into my arms, and I hold him. His sobs were louder than I thought, because the losers club stood nowhere near us, to inside the bathroom, from one second to another. Bev clasped her hands over her mouth and Ben held her tightly. Whereas bill started blank faced, and Stan had to leave the room. Mike stood there teary-eyed. Me full on crying. I had thrown the blade on the floor. And my hands covered in blood from eddies arm and the blade. "Fucking someone grab something to clean this" I say shakily, but angrily. Mike runs downstairs and Bill goes to my room. "i'm sorry I can't" Beverly says, she speedily exits the bathroom. Ben by her side. Just Eddie and I in the bathroom alone again. I forced his sleeves up revealing the previous cuts that marked his skin. And with one quick movement I pulled him onto my lap... cuddling him and holding him tightly. "I never stopped loving you" I tell him and a tear drop lands on his face.

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