I'm In Love With a Music Lover

IILWAML-Chapter 8

A/N: Sa wakas nagawan ko din ng POV si John ^_^ .

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            <John Clifford's POV>

Nababadtrip pa rin ako kay Dad hanggang ngayon. Lahat na lang ng gusto niya kelangan kong tuparin. I grew up with a broken family. I was seven when my parents decided to separate. Dad can't stand living with my Mom dahil sa hilig nito sa pag-awit. Yeah, my mom's a singer at dahil sa talento niyang ito sila nagkakilala ni dad. Nagtratrabaho si Mommy noon sa music bar namin na pinatayo ng lolo ko. Doon din daw sila nagkakilala ni lola noon kaya hanggang ngayon buhay pa rin ang music bar namin dahil mahalaga iyon kina lolo at lola.

Gusto ni Mommy na kumanta pa rin dahil hindi daw makukumpleto ang kanyang pagkatao kung ititigil niya ang hilig nito pero hindi iyon sinang-ayunan ni Daddy. Gusto nito e sa bahay na lang si Mommy pero ayaw naman ni mommy dahil maboboring daw siya.

Dahil sa hindi pagkakaintindihan habang tumatagal palagi na silang nag-aaway. Kahit gusto kong sumama kay Mommy ayaw naman ni Dad dahil baka daw mapabayaan niya ako. Kaya kahit labag sa loob ko e kay Daddy ako lumaki.

But sometimes I can't understand him because he never understands me. He always push me to do things I never wanted to do. He always decide things for myself pati na ang kursong kinukuha ko. He wanted me to take business education course kahit ayoko.

Nakakairita na rin minsan kasi lahat na lang ng ayaw kong gawin gusto niyang gawin ko. He controls my life. I felt like I am a living robot. I can't do anything I want.

Gusto niyang ako ang papalit sa kanya sa mga kompanyang pinamamahalaan niya dahil ako lang naman ang anak niya but I never wanted to. I wanted to be like Mom. I wanna hold my time and decide for myself. 

Kuńg hindi dahil kay lolo matagal na sanang nawala ang Hendersen's Music Bar. Iyon lang ang pag-aari nila lolo na hindi tinanggap ni dad na manahin. Maybe he really hate mom that much.

Dad never knew that I always go to our music bar. I just can't help it. Hinahanap hanap ko pa rin ang pagpeperform kahit pinagbabawalan ako ni dad. Buti na lang kakampi ko sina lolo at lola. Paminminsan lang naman akong kumakanta para lang pagbigyan ko ang sarili ko. A singer's blood is running from my veins because my mom's blood is more powerful than my dad's.

When I was still in America I hid my talent because I'm afraid dad might hate me too. I was just giving myself a chance to show it inside my room not infront of many people. How I wish I was like mom. 

No one can stop her from doing want she wanted.

Now that I came back, I decided to give myself a chance to follow myself.  I will try to terminate this fear that lives inside me.

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"John, wake up!. It's your first day in school son." Dad shaking my shoulders and pulls my comforter that covers me then he left after making sure that I was already awake.

Tsk!. I hate my schedules. America's really far different from Philippines. I opened my eyes and closed it again and wait 'till I  feel I was totaly awaken.

I just arrived yesterday after he made sure that all my papers in transfering school is perfectly done and yet he wanted me already to attend my classes as early as this?

Urgh! He's really an impossible man. Tssss!!...

See? He never know how to consider how I feel.

I stand up after a few seconds and entered my bathroom to take a bath.