Johnson Memories

Chapter 7 Will the suffer end?

Joven's pov
 It's been six days since Paige passed away, Mari and Wes have not been at work all week but we understand why.
It's really hit us to the core because Paige was only a baby and she was part of the family.
Non of us have been focused on work much because we've just suffered a loss, our time off is causing viewers to comment asking where we are and what's taking so long with video updates well if they knew, they would understand.

Jenny's pov
Mommy and Daddy are really sad, they haven't talked since we got home but that was ages ago.
They still take care of me and Daniel but they won't talk to each other or us.
I think it has something to do with coming home without Paige because Mommy told me that we will never see her again.
I miss Paige.
I go into Daniel's room to play with him. I grab hold of his blanket ad run around his room with it while he chews a rubber ring.
Daddy then comes in and without saying anything, he picks me up and takes me out of the room and carries me down stairs where I see Auntie Liv.
"Auntie Liv!" I squeal then run to her after Daddy puts me down.
"Hi Jenny" Auntie Liv greets and hugs me.
"Why are you here?" I ask her. She sighs and looks sad.
"Jenny, you and Daniel are gonna come stay with me for a few days" She tells me.
"Why?" I ask.
"Because Mommy and Daddy have to talk about stuff and they thought it would be ok for me to look after you until they've sorted stuff out" Auntie Liv explains.
"What kind of stuff?" I ask.
"You'll find out soon" She replies. "Now, why don't we do get yours and Daniels stuff packed and we can go to my house?" Auntie Liv asks.
I nod and run upstairs to my room. After me and Daniel are packed and ready to go to Auntie Liv's, we have to say goodbye to Mommy and Daddy. I hug Mommy.
"Bye Angel, I'll see you in a few days" She says.
"Bye Mommy I love you" I say to her. "I love you too" She replies, sound like she's crying. I then let Daniel hug Mommy while I hug Daddy.
"Bye Daddy, I'll miss you" I tell him. "I'll miss you too cupcake and you'll see me again before you know it" He replies.
"I love you Daddy" I say.
"Love you too" He says.
I then let go of Daddy and stand with Auntie Liv who's now holding Daniel and we leave the house, get in Auntie Liv's car and go to her house.

Wes's pov
We wanted Olivia to look after the kids while me and Mari talk about what we're gonna do.
Because of Mari's short memory loss, Paige's bad asthma and now her death, our marriage is going down hill and it's affecting us and our kids.
So we seriously need to talk about it.
"Well, kids are gone. Now it's just us" I say.
"Mmhm" Mari hums, nodding.
"Mari, don't just give short answers. You know we need to talk" I tell her.
"Ok fine. We'll talk" She says, crossing her arms.
"We can't keep doing this, we need to start thinking more about Jenny and Daniel" I state.
"I know, it's just hard to let go of Paige" Mari replies.
"I get that and I know we can't just let go but we have to. Paige was not our only child, we have two more kids that need us" I remind her.
"I'm not saying that I've forgotten about Jenny and Daniel or I'm giving up on them. We've just lost a child! She died before she even had a chance at life, before her first words and steps, before school and making friends, before college and starting her own life. She's missing out on everything!" She exclaims, tears forming in her eyes.
"She may not get that chance but Jenny and Daniel do! They're still with us and get to make their choices and get their own lives and even learn from our mistakes!" I yell.
"What were our mistakes? Meeting each other? Having our kids? Getting married?! Because I don't understand what mistakes you're talking about" She argues.
"Are you saying you actually regret everything you've done with me? Because I've always been by your side!" I reply, tears now forming in my eyes.
"When I left college, you never came with me" She states.
"But I came back! I was supportive of you through out your pregnancy and Jenny's birth. I proposed to you because I love you, I respected your choice to quit ballet, I saved you from Peter multiple times, I supported you with your second pregnancy and sure, I may have been a bit late for the birth but I still made it and was there for you! I have been by your side for five years and now you think they were mistakes?" I rant about our past.
"No! I've never regretted meeting you, Wes! I've never regretted having the kids and marrying you was the best thing that ever happened to me! I love you! When we said our vows at the alter, I meant every word. The only thing I regret is getting pregnant in college" Mari tells me.
"So you do regret the kids" I scoff and look away.
"No. Just I wish we had the kids after college. I've never regretted bringing Jenny and Daniel into the world and I would do anything for them but I would give anything to have all my babies" She argues.
"And there you go again, bringing Paige into the conversation!" I yell and pace around.
"We can't just forget about her and act like she never existed because she was once here! We made her, birthed her and nurtured her. We can't just act like she was never born!" She shouts, her face turning red with rage.
"Mari, I know she once existed but she's gone now and nothing can bring her back" I say, a bit calmer but still arguing.
"Do you know what I think will be best?" Mari asks me.
"What?"
"We need some time apart" She replies.
"What? What do you mean?" I question her.
"I'm sorry Wes, but it's for the best. I'm not saying we get a divorce, I'm just saying we should have some time apart until we get our lives patched up" She explains, hurt and regret in her voice and tears streaming down her face.
"No! We don't need time apart. We can just get some counselling..." I argue but she cuts me off.
"Once the kids get back, I'll say bye to them and I'll go live with my parents until I'm ready to come back. The kids can still see me and my parents but I won't be coming back to work" She tells me.
"Mari, please don't" I plead.
"I'm sorry, it's for the best. I'm leaving after the kids get back. I really am sorry baby, but just remember that I love you, Jenny, Daniel and everyone at work" She says before going upstairs.
I stay where I am, frozen in shock at Mari's decision.
I don't want her to leave, it's just like college all over again.
But what if she's right?
I sigh and sit on the couch, rubbing my face.
When will our suffering end?