Sometimes it's a little too much...|| Emilio Martinez

Chapter 9

Ivan POV

"What are you trying to say Ivan ?" "Look ! Just hear me out ! That's all I'm asking !" "Yeah sure , I hear you out , but what do you mean ? What do you mean you want to talk about this past month!!! I exactly know what happened to mean in this past months !!" "Emilio please.... Just try to calm down and hear me out !" "Fine !" "Thank you !"- I saw the rage in his eyes. If look could kill , I would be dead by now. Basically I duped my own grave. We all did when we accepted the challenge. "So...." "Spit it out Ivan !" "Ok , first of all I'm really, really sorry! I can't imagine the pain and the suffer you went through ! I've been a horrible brother. The only thing I can say is that I'm sorry !" "Yeah you're right ! You don't know what I've been through !" "This whole thing started out as a game. We were at Logan's house. I think you was with Tessa at the time. None of you knew about this. So this is why when we her, she didn't agreed to do this. To do this to you. Now I know that I shouldn't have agreed to do it either. You might wonder what the hell am I talking about ! Well we played Truth or Dare. Of course the team said dare. The dare was to make your life a living hell for 2 months. This is why you got the punches , kicks and those horrible words. Just because of a stupid dare. I'm sorry Emilio ! I'm so so sorry !"- by the time I finished my story tears stringed down my face. Emilio cried too. I don't know what to do. Should I hug him ? Probably he would push me away from him. "Why ?"- a weak voice snapped me out of my trance. "Why did you do this ? I know why the others did it. I got that , but you ! You're my brother ! Why you had to do this ?" "I-I-I don't know."-my guilt nearly ate me alive. I couldn't look into his eyes. This is all my fault. I lost my brother...
"This is your grande answer ? Really Ivan ?!?" "I'M SORRY ! I KNOW I SCREWED UP ! I'm really sorry ! I don't know what to do OK !"-my fist collided with the wall and I slide down to the floor. The only sound that is heard is my crying. I cried. Cried for my brother , for our relationship , for everything.
Suddenly a hand touched my shoulder. When I looked up I met with Emilio's eyes. His eyes hold sadness. "Hey , you alright ?" "Me ? From the two of us you're the one who hurt the most , but you ask me if I'm OK ?" "This is what brothers do..." "I'm the worst brother !" "Don't say that !" "It's the truth !!" "You're too hard to yourself ! Everyone slips once in its life ! It's fine !!" "No, it's not !"-silence took over us. After about thirty minutes on the cold hospital floor I told Emilio he should get back to his bed. I on the other hand settled on the not so comfortable chair. But it's worth it for Emilio. I would do anything for him. "Ivan ? Are you asleep ?" "Noo" "Can I tell you something ?" "Yeah sure !" "I'm sorry too. I wasn't strong enough !" "What do you mean Emilio ?" "I did things.. Bad things..." "What king of things ?"-he didn't look me in the eyes. Oh I just hope he didn't do anything too stupid. "You can tell me anything Emilio ! I won't be angry with you." "Promise ?" "Promise !"- finally he looked me in the eyes. His eyes are full of sorrow and fear. "As I said I did bad things. I wasn't strong enough. I broke and I'm not sure if this could be fixed." "Emilio you scarring me !" Please tell me , tell me you didn't do anything stupid !" "I did stupid things.." "Like what ?" "I starved myself because I thought I'm fat. After that all of this became too much to handle, so cutting seemed to be a good option. I know it's wrong but I had to try it." "No...oh no,no,no,no"- my heart broke into millions of pieces. I can't believe I made my brother do this to himself ! "Ivan ! Hey, hey ! Take big breaths ! You'll have a panic attack !" "Noo ! I'm so sorry Emilio ! I...I..can..can't believe this !- my throat closed up. No air came in. Everything became blurry. "HELP PLEASE ! I NEED A DOCTOR !"- I heard Emilio faintly. Black dots covered my sight. "Please help ! He got a panic attack !" "Don't worry your brother will be fine ! We'll help him !"- this newcomer voice was the last thing I heard before darkness took over me...

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No more secrets for both twins !
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                                  -Nina-