Sometimes it's a little too much...|| Emilio Martinez

Chapter 13

Emilio POV

I can't believe this.... He can't be dead... No! I must imagine this! I know he had depression in the past, but that was a very long time ago! I just can't believe this! My friend since diaper is dead.... I felt myself get whiter and whiter by every passing second. Things got blurry and I felt very dizzy. Ivan must have noticed this because he approached me with a worried look on his face. He asked me a bunch of questions but I couldn't answer any of it. I heard him shout something and more people gathered around me. "Emilio? Emilio? What happened? Tell us please! You're scaring me!" - it was Tessa's voice. "He's dead..." "Who's dead Emilio?" - I looked up with a blank expression on my face. "Alex.. Alex is dead!" - I saw Ivan got paler and he had to sit down. Someone literally had to carry Mr back to the car. I was so out of it I didn't noticed we were in the car. I sat in the back of the car with Ivan and Tessa. No words were exchanged. Inside though I had a major breakdown. This was the last piece. The last piece that kept me sane... I felt... empty. I made my choice. I'll finally do it. I'll end everything for once and for all...

~~~~~~~Skip to the next day~~~~~~~

I'm doing this! I already planned everything out. They planning on going out for lunch. I had to convince Ivan to leave without me. He asked me if I'm planning on doing something but I lied him that I just want to mourne over Alex's dead.
When they finally left I already planned out everything. I'll take in a few sleeping pills and cut deeper than I usually would. I wrote a goodbye letter for Ivan and for TEAM 10. I put that on my bed.
Everything is ready. Now I'm sitting on my bed with the letters in my hand. I wrote a short text to Ivan saying that I love him and we won't anymore. All I have to do is hit send. I know it may look selfish but I have to do this. I have to do this for myself. Send. No turning back from here...
As I make my way to the bathroom memories of my family and my brother flooding in my mind. They'll be better off without me..
Everything is set. I sit down on the floor and put the razor and the bottle of pills infront of me. I can hear my phone ringing, it's probably Ivan but I won't pick up. I know he would try to change my mind but I won't. I emptiened half of the bottle. I put the little white pills one by one in my mouth. Until it kicks in I slowly reach for the razor. I put the razor on my skin, and with a slow and steady move I cut a deep line into my wrist,and another one and another one. I did the same thing to my other wrist. I watched the blood slowly pouring down to the floor. The pills started to kick in, my head felt dizzy, my vision blurred. Peaceful blackness welcomed me with open arms as I felt myself slip into unconsciousness.

~~~End of the flashback-Back to the present time~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

3rd Person's POV

Ivan bursts into the house. Screaming his brother's name knowing his life could depend on it. No one answers. Now the whole TEAM 10 is panicking.
"EMI!!! EMILIO!!!!"-panic rising in Ivan's voice. They run upstairs not knowing what will they find. In the Martinez Twins bedroom Emilio is laying on the floor. His veins are cut open. The blood is pouring out like it's water. And a bottle of half empty sleeping pills next to him. "CALL THE AMBULANCE!!!- Ivan shouts to the others while his sight is blurred by his tears. "The ambulance on its way!"-Jake said. They tried to stop the bleeding by putting towels on the cuts. "Please stay with me Emi !- said Ivan through his tears. The ambulance arrived in less than 15 minutes. They put oxigen mask on him and stopped the bleeding. Quickly rushed with him, saving every second. Nick went with Emilio in the ambulance. While the ambulance rushed in with Emilio the others tried to calm down the panicking brother. Everyone piled in cars and rushed to the hospital.