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...You're in love.

Those words keeps popping up in my head as I drive back to my apartment. I don't know how I feel about what Dan said but it fucking scares me. It fucking scares the hell out of me.

I like Liam but I'm not in love with him.

Is it possible that I'm in love and wouldn't know that I am?

It's fucking insane. I'm going insane. Hearing Dan say that I'm in love with someone who has been so mean to me is driving me nuts and I just can't help but huff unnecessarily.

I don't believe in falling in love, with everything going on with my parents, I don't think I can find myself falling in love. Not now.

I'm not the type that falls in love. I've never been in love. I don't even know how it feels to be in love. How is it possible that I'm in love?

Why haven't I been able to figure out if it's the truth?

Even if I'm to be in love, there should be an heads-up or something more like it. And since I see no signs, I think Dan's mouth is just running some bullshit.

But why is my heart racing so fast?

Seeing people walking around, It suddenly feels like Liam is everywhere because I can see him in everyone walking on the street. I have to shake my head couple of times to snap out of my trance.

My car finally comes to a halt and I head into the building. Liam is at the lobby, smiling at me. Funniest thing is that Liam hasn't been smiling at me lately, he's been so mean. So why would he be at the lobby, smiling at me?

"Hello Miss Harwood" he says in a friendly tone. Did he just call me Miss Harwood? I stare for a while before shaking my head to snap out of my reverie.

Even the concierge looks like Liam. Fucking great!

Without replying the man, I rush away to the elevator.

I step out of the shower after a nice warm bath. That should help calm my nerves for a while. I wrap a towel around me as I take a look at myself in the bathroom mirror.

A small smile starts to play on my lips as I take in my features in the mirror. Why am I smiling now?

Just then again I can see an image of him smiling at me in the mirror. I gasp with widen eyes and I quickly wipe the mirror with my hand, rushing out of the bathroom right after.

Why is Liam everywhere? He doesn't seem to be everywhere before.

The thoughts of him makes my heart goes wild, beating faster with fear. I'm never scared whenever he crosses my mind. Why now?

You're in love. Dan's words repeats in my head again and I feel like Mr universe is playing a trick on me.

I let out a frustrating groan and heave a deep sigh. I slide into my white pyjama and gently crawl into bed. I just need to sleep everything away and I'll be fine in the morning. I'm pretty sure Dan was just out of his mind.

I wake up to no sign of William in the apartment and I feel a little at ease. Fucking hell, I shouldn't feel anything besides ease only if my night was what I presumed it was going to be.

I had a short or better still, a sleepless night because I couldn't stop thinking about him. I can't even shut my eyes because whenever I do, he just seems to be staring at me in the darkness, making fun of me. I've been thinking all night how I would face him if I come across him. I'm not sure how things would feel between us, at least not when I think Dan might be saying the truth.