Love for Leondre

Chapter Nineteen

-Tia Prov-
I woke up sweating like mad, panting. My body aching like hell. My mum was asleep peacefully on the couch. I decided to get up and go to the kitchen to grab a knife. I quietly opened the draw and got the sharpest knife in there. I went to the bathroom and put the knife on my skin and slowly dragged it across, I loved the feeling of the blood trickling down my wrist. I forgot to lock the door, it got thrown open and my mum was stood there looking down at my wrist. She sighed and shook at her head at me.

I felt a tear run down my cheek. She knelt down besides me and kissed my forehead gently, took the knife off of me and rain the tap and grabbed my wrist and pulled it under the water.
It kinda hurt but I liked it. She nearly wrapped up my arm in a bandage she got out of the first aid box

She took hold of my hand and lead me back to the couch. And sat me down kissed me on the cheek and went to get two cups of hot chocolates

"I love you, you know that right?" Mum asked

"Yeah of course i do mum" I replied with a confused look on my face

I just decided to lie down, close my eyes and try to fall back asleep. But as I was led there, all the memories of where I fucked up came back to me. Every little mistake I made came back. It hurt. I dug my head into my pillow a threw the quilt over my head and let the tears stream down my face onto my pillow.

I had every reason to hate myself right now. I don't deserve any happiness. All these horrible thoughts came to my head. I just wanted to run away from everything and everyone. So many suicidal thoughts where flooding my mind I just couldn't take this anymore.

I go to stand up and walk out the door but someone grabbed my hand. I turned around and saw my mum there shaking her head at me.