Love for Leondre

Chapter Twelve

-Tia Prov-
Once I sat down, all i could feel was my mums eyes looking straight at me. I didn't know what to say to her. She could tell something was wrong. She could 'feel it' or some stupid shit like that. She just decided to pay the bill and we decided to go home.
I logged on to my Instagram, people just kept calling me a slut and saying my family was jacked up. Death threats decided to roll in to. Didn't really no what to do. I couldn't cry, I couldn't feel anything. I was already alone I was looking for a friend

We got home, I said nothing to no one. I just went straight up to my room. My mum took the lock of my door so I couldn't lock myself in again. So I just put a chair in front of the door

I mean screw it, I am really nothing nobody will stop me from taking this rope and jumping. So I took it. I tied the rope around my neck and proceeded to jump. But then My mum burst through the door. I didn't know what to do, I didn't know what to say. I saw the tears in her eyes I felt my pain go away.

She took the rope from around my neck. Threw it on the floor. I was just stood up on the chair still, I knew she wanted to cry.

"Why didn't you tell me it was getting this bad" Mum cried.

"I didn't want to hurt you" I whispered.

"You didn't want to hurt me? She yelled I could of found you dead"

"I didn't know what to do.." I cried

My mum knew I wasn't in a fit state to talk so she just picked me up, put me on my bed and sat with me. She texted Leondre to ring an ambulance because she couldn't trust me on my own.

I panicked a bit when I saw her typing it. I looked at her, she looked at me. And then I saw a tear rolling down mums cheek. That's when I knew I hurt her.

I didn't want to hurt her. The more tears that rolled down her cheeks the more I started to hate myself even more.

My Text tone decided to make itself known. I went to check it which was the biggest mistake I made, it was Eloise.

Eloise:Ahh well I see those bambinos terrorised you good

Me:Leave me alone..

Eloise:Your such a imbecile I bet your dead you waste of space, Leondre hates you. Go away.

I chocked back my tears Because I didn't wanna let my mum see me crying. She's seen enough today and I didn't wanna hurt her more.

The paramedics turned up and I didn't wanna go. But I knew myself I wasn't in a stable condition to stay at my house where I had so many things to hurt myself with.