RVB: [OneShots]/[Stories]

Edge | [TuckerXDepressed!Reader]

[17/November/2017]

Warning!:
This following oneshot has self harm, depression and suicidal thoughts, so if you are triggered by ANY FORM of depression related topics, I HIGHLY recommend you not to read this oneshot!

"Why don't you tell them what's up in your long sleeves, [Y/N]?" Felix said dramatic voice as he looked right into your eyes, as the reds and blues, together with Wash, slowly looked at your direction.

You and the gang were surrounded by Locus, Felix and space pirates ready to kill you.

"[Y/N]..?" You heard Tucker's Voice from behind you mummer.

"What the hell do you mean, Felix?" You lied, now with an obvious tremble in your voice.

You approached Kimball about your depression. It has gotten out of hand and you need someone to spill it out to. First, Church and Carolina ran away with no goodbyes. Who would even know if they were still alive? What if they were hurt? What if they're being held hostage in wherever whatever? No one will know. Than, Wash, Sarge, donut, Lopez and if you count Freckles got captured by the federal army. What if they are being tortured? This was your family and it was falling apart so quickly. You were falling apart. It caused you to hate yourself for not protecting them enough. For everything that has happened you blame yourself. And you self harmed to punish yourself, but there was still a massive mountain guilt in you.

And unlucky for you, Felix was always in the room planning an "attack mission" with Kimball.

"Please, stop lying to your quote on quote, 'friends' here, and cut me some slack, you depressed piece of shit." Felix cooed, making you frustrated.

"Don't call her a piece of shit when you haven't looked at yourself." Wash backed you up.

"That is more than what I needed to hear." A familiar voice coming from the space pirates

A black armored soldier emerged from the platoon of space pirates. She changed her armor onto a color alike Tucker's color and started to fight off the another army. It was Carolina! You and the others followed her to fight.

It seemed like forever trying to fight them off, but than someone dropped the teleportation cubes and now, you where in another place. You looked around, the wind blowing from the right, swaying the leaves of the trees that was in the small area. You felt eyes on you, staring intensely, as if they wanted to get into your soul. Obviously, after what Felix said, everyone will be curious.

"[Y/N], everything is certainly not okay with you. What's happening to you, solider?" Sarge asked in his commanding tone.

"Felix was just toying with his mouth. Everything is A-Okay." You said, faking a smile.

"It's obvious that you're lying, [Y/N]. What's wrong?" Wash questioned lightly, worried that if he gave you a commanding tone, you would run.

"Look, I'm okay. There's nothing wrong with me. I'm okay!" You said as you stormed off to the nearby edge to have some alone time.

It was already more than an hour after being left alone. There was already a sunset forming, yellow, orange and red horizon. It was going to be a beautiful evening. You stared at the sky.

"What if i am the a bad luck charm and I'm affecting the group?" You mumbled to yourself, hugging both your knees, making a protective shell with your body.

You were already on the edge. You can just jump down right now. You had a gun to shoot yourself. You could end your life right here right now. You got up and you just stood at the edge, ready to jump as tears rolled down your eyes. That was when you screamed. Every emotion you once held together let lose. Anger, Sadness, guilt and many more flowed out from your scream as you cupped your entire face with your hands. You jumped.

"[Y/N]! No!" You heard a voice from behind shouting.

You expected to hit the ground. You were waiting for the pain and the death. But you were left floating off the edge. You felt a force pulling you back up to the edge on your left arm and looked up. It was Tucker. He was helmetless and.. crying? He looked at you straight in the eye with tears leaking onto your face. You felt even more guilty, wiggling your hand to Free yourself from his grasp but it would've budge.

"[Y/N]! Don't end your life like this! Please, come back up. We can go through this together, I don't want to lose you."

All you could do was cry ask you were lifted back up. Tucker pulled you into his arms and held you tightly.

"You don't need to hide your emotions please.. let me help. Let US help." Tucker pleaded as running footstep sounds grew closer.