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The Next Day...

Pranita :
'I will never give up on this love' Varun had said. I so hoped that he fights against me and my decision. But I didn't want him to do that, because if he did, I would easily give up..and that would ruin Radha's dream.

That night, I dozed off hoping that tomorrow morning I would wake up and find that all this was a mere nightmare.
But little did I know that things would become worse...

I woke up the next morning. It was third last day of the camp. However now the days in the camp made no difference in my mood. I had no emotions about anything.. The reason was that I had become so harsh to myself that the environment outside was not impacting the inner me.
Yes, it did hurt when I saw Varun sad but.. But I convinced myself that he would forgive me for all this.

I walked up to the food tent when I saw Varun coming out of it with his coffee in his hand. He walked towards me.. Forward and forward.. My heartbeat was racing. How will he react?

But with no expression on his face he walked pass me, not even looked me as if I didn't exist. How can he do that! Wait! I had done the same to him. In fact even worse than this. He was right on his path. But.. But I am not used to Varun ignoring me.
I should get used to it though, I thought .

I proceeded into the tent. Drank my tea sitting in a corner. Today, we will trek down. The camp is almost over. Maybe I will never be able to see Varun after this. He will also forget me eventually, I hoped.

I walked out of the tent and saw Radha, Varun, Meera and Sid sitting on the rocks in front. Varun and Radha sitting much close to each other. Ugh! That hurts.

Meera saw me and motioned me to join them. I wanted to join but Varun was also there and that would become very awkward. I avoided Meera by pointing towards Varun. Meera understood what I wanted to say but still urged me to join. I thought she had a word with Varun and things were being okay. I went and sat beside Sid. Varun had saw me coming towards them. but I couldn't figure out whether he was happy or sad by me joining them.

"so Radha.. What were you saying?" said Varun.

His speaking style seemed normal but there was a harshness and roughness in his tone. Earlier, his voice was so soothing but today it sounded absurd.

"oh Varun.. We were discussing about the future,careers and all. But you didn't seem to be interested" Radha replied.

"future.. Future is so very fake, Radha. A person can never predict future." Varun said as if talking more to himself. He continued, now looking at me, "I tried to claim my future once. Had made so many plans with her but little did I know that she will end up being a playgirl. A girl who just uses others and makes fun of their feelings. I don't like that. I hate that."
He was looking at me the whole time. Making me realize my fault over and over again. And he also stated that he hates me. Hates me. Well that is fair. I have started hating myself as well.

Guilt was over taking me and it was difficult to even look at Varun. "Ummm.. Guys! I need to pack my bag. So I'll see you in a bit" I decided to leave.

I ran towards my tent when someone caught my hand from behind and stopped me very aggressively. Who that must be!
I turned around and saw Sid behind me. He had never beeen so aggressive before.

"Sid! What the hell are you doing?"

"Not me Pranita! What the hell are you doing! Till when are you going to run from this reality? When will you accept the fact that you also love Varun and can't live without him. I can see your love for him in your eyes whenever you see him. Why don't you damn accept it!"

His hold was getting tighter. Moreover his words were hurting me. All the things I had been running from were now in front of me in a second.

"Sid! You are hurting me!" I said to avoid the topic.