Love you 'Til Death?

Chapter 31

Dear All

So here's the next chapter. I admit I wasn't going to write, but then I checked when last I uploaded and I was disappointed in myself, including all the comments and messages I got, I officially feel like crap. So I stayed up after a study session to write this. Its probably short. But bear with me because I'm writing exams and they are really important to me.

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"The glass that rips your word apart..."

Chapter 31

Should I meet him?

Should I not meet him?

Should I act as if my heart isn't pounding against my chest in desperation as I lay awake and think about my next move?

Was it that simple?

Tomorrow was the said day to meet him. I've seen him a few times in school over the past few days. He'd keep his distance but I felt his gaze on me and it took everything in me not to run up to him like I so desperately wanted. Forget what I said about 'being over him'. Who was I trying to fool? I could never forget being with him. Those hypnotic eyes that had I had mesmerised. The way he held me when we fell asleep after a heated moment. Those rare occasions when he held onto me and told me that I was the only one for him and that he loved me deeply.

Did I want to forget him?

I don't know...

And that's what was wavering me, to go and see him. To see what he has to say.

To see if we can make us work.

Just thinking about it made my heart ache.

What was wrong with me?

Maybe if I...

There was a knock on the door. I got up from my warm bed, putting on a pair of flip flops so I don't feel the coldness of the floor as I made my way downstairs.

I looked at the time. Only nine in the evening, and I wasn't even tired.

I opened the door. Greeted by Matt, with a huge grin on his face and a box of pizza in his hand.

I rolled my eyes at him, more irritated with myself then him.

"I am not a baby, you don't have to babysit me every single night Matt." I said, with annoyance and a tinge of anger.

"Yeah. Well I thought you didn't wanna be alone. I don't want to be alone so I came over. Can't a best friend just hang out with his best friend without ulterior motives?" He replied, sounding hurt.

"No. You think I'm going to run back to him so you decide to watch me like a hawk." I said, folding my arms to emphasise my mood.

Now it was his turn to roll his eyes. "Scar are you hearing yourself? Do you want me to leave?" He asked, the humour gone from his eyes replaced with a serious expression.

I sighed, running a hand through my hair.

"Can we just eat? And then I'll leave." He pleaded.

I saw desperation in his eyes before they were replaced with nothing. This isn't something I wasn't use too.

"Yeah." I said, stepping aside and letting him in.

As he walked past me he said, "Thanks, I was beginning to think you would have left me out in the cold." He chuckled.

"Better thanks your lucky ass cause I would've done just that."

We sat and ate and watched a bit of tv. Life was simple with Matt he didn't ask much of me and that's why I was completely comfortable with him. This is how it should be. Above all Matt was my best friend. It was a given that I would do anything for him, and never hurt him in any way.

Why can't I be with Matt?

It would just be simple.

Did I have those feelings for him.

"You know what happened today at school?" He asked.

I shook my head, I wasn't exactly present in the world of the living today.

"Seriously?"

"No!"

"Okay so Jake and Tina broke up." Jake was one of Matt's friends.

"No way." I said faking enthusiasm.

"Yeah, but it was hilarious, apparently he slept with Lily in the Janitors closet and somebody took a video, and showed Tina. That's when all hell broke lose! I'm talking chick fight, and then Jake getting slaps."

" Oh my gosh! That must've been hectic. How bad was Lily hit?" I asked, a little interested now.

"Don't know." He shrugged.

"What a lame story. At least get some details." I punched him softly in the arm, but he faked getting hurt.

"Anyway. I guess I should go. You don't actually want me here I can tell." He said.

And just like that the light carefree atmosphere changed.

I frowned, "what are you talking about?"

He snorted, getting up and collecting the empty pizza box and cups that held our sodas, making his was to the kitchen.

I got up and followed him, "Matt!"

"Look, I'm trying to be here for you. But its all about you. You think I don't see you stare at Cole at school, or when you just zone out when I'm talking to you. It breaks my heart. That longing look on your face when you look at him makes me sick. After he did what he did you still want him?" He said.

I was about to protest when he cut me off, " no you listen, I lay awake and I honestly don't know where I went wrong. I'm meant to protect you, and it kills me inside to know that he fucked you up bad. You think what your feeling is love. I don't get it, do you feel some sort of loyalty to him because he popped your cherry? Do you even think Scarlett!" He all but shouted.

"You know what. Fuck it! I hope you do the right thing tomorrow." And with that he left through the back door.

Leaving me speechless and wondering where did all that come from?

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