Loving This Bad Boy

feelings

Violet

I woke up to a knock on my door I was planning on ignoring it but they kept on insisting. God can't I just get some sleep "I'm coming" I groaned. I see Jason standing there "ugh what do you want" I whined "Adriana wants too ask you something but she's embarrassed" he said

What could she have possibly wanted from me?! "What" I said "do you have makeup so she can cover up the hickeys" he smirked...oh god kill me now. I nodded and went to get the makeup "okay she's waiting in the room" he said

Wait what?? She wants me to actually cover her fucking hickeys can't she do it herself!!!

I went into the room like the good human being I am. She was blushing "sit down here and you open the curtains" I said "no please?" Jason said and I rolled my eyes

I started to do it damn was he actually trying to eat her or something they're all over her neck.

"Thank you so much I'm sorry to bother you but my mom would actually kill me if she saw them. Do you Mind if I take the makeup I know it's yours but i need it please " she said ughhh "sure" I faked a smiled "thank you" she smiled actually meaning it. I gave her a reassuring smile and she headed out giving Jason a kiss

"So your dating now" I asked "ehh" he shrugged...WOW SHOULD I FEEL HAPPY OR SORRY FOR HER! The poor girl doesn't know what's heading her way.

I heard the door bell ring I ran downstairs I had a feeling it was Noah. It was him but he was with his mom I guess she was here for my mom. I gave Noah a quick kiss and hug then turned to his mom

"hello" I smiled and she returned it "hi it's nice to see you again! We should have dinner one day now that you guys are dating and all" she said "mom don't scare her away" Noah rolled his eyes "oh it's fine" I smiled "okay well is your mom here sweetie" she asked "yeah she's in the kitchen" I told her where

I took him to the living room "so are you staying with me" I asked him "no my mom won't let me" he said looking down "will it be dangerous" I asked actually worried "aw no I think I'll be fine they don't look at my house anymore" he said and pulled me into his arms I smiled up at him "god you have beautiful green eyes" i said and he blushed "oh god stop"

"Eww you guys are so cringe but my eyes are better you know" Jason said "wow" I replied

"he's just jealous he can't keep a real relationship" Noah grinned and Jason glared "I can keep a relationship I just choose not too" he came back and Noah just stayed quiet.

I saw my mom and Noah's mom walk to the living room with us. She came up to us "Hey so I was thinking about diner tonight or any time for that matter" Noah's mom said "I'll think about it" I said "okay let us know with Noah when you decide" she smiled and left.

God this is going to be weird I mean I like Noah and all but having diner with his parents! I don't know I was also scared if they would judge me or not. What if they think I'm not worthy of him?? I'm such an awkward person there's so many ways this can go wrong. What if I forgot all my parents taught me about fancy diners. What if I do something wrong this is so much pressure oh god I've only been dating Noah like 1 month. Ughhhh...

I felt someone had pulled me aside "hey baby you don't feel comfortable going to diner right" he said "no it's not that it's just I'm scared of what they'll think of me. It's just the pressure and it's all happening so fast like we haven't been dating for that long..." I said I was talking fast oops

"Ohh...your not sure about your feelings for me so you don't see the point of having diner with my family if you don't see us anywhere I understand... I really do..." he said with slight hurt in his eyes. Oh no "no baby... Noah don't say that please" I tried to confort him but failed "you didn't deny it..." he sighed.

Oh shit I know he's right I'm not sure about my feelings and everything but I can't tell him that.

"Hey it's just me okay I'm not sure if they'll like me that's why I'm uncertain" I gave him my best fake smile "okay..." he said not believing a word that came out of my mouth. I grabbed his cheek and pulled him in for a kiss and he returned it but weakly. He's sad...I feel so bad he's such a good boyfriend...I don't deserve him.

I hugged him tightly "I'll see you later" I still didn't let him go. I waited until he did "bye" I gave him a quick kiss on the cheek.

I was walking upstairs "I thought I was the heartbreaker, bad one, and just horrible in general not you. Your not a very good liar breaking poor Noah's heart. Why are you with him if you don't love him?? you can see it from a mile away..." he told me the truth I didn't want to hear.

"Damn thanks for making me feel like shit... I just don't know okay it's just he likes me. Like really likes me and doesn't just want to fuck. He actually cares and I've never experienced that before I just wish I could like him back. He's okay with us being in public and not be embarrassed you know how much that means to me? I know I'm a horrible person for using him just to make myself feel better but you won't understand. Your used to having people fall in love with you in a matter of seconds" I said and there was tears coming out at this point.

"I'm sorry don't cry I didn't mean it your not a horrible person or anything you're the exact opposite. Noah was right i am jealous that I can't keep relationship. Does it really matter if all these girls fall for me if I know I'll just fuck up everything. Maybe you just need time to be alone" he said as he held me in his arms.

"Thank you" I said as I let him go "anytime now you should go and think whether your going or not" he said going into his room

I swear he could be the nicest person on the planet when he's feeling it.