The Perks of Falling in love with a Wallflower

Part 2

Dear Friend,

   Still hoping your reading and stuff. Today we started school. It was funny to see all the nervous freshman. Was I that nervous? Ha- I hope not. Shop class was the best. I was surrounded by freshman. They all looked nervous as hell. So I drew on a sideburn- bears thing and immitated the shop teacher. Everyone laughed. As I looked around I saw this cute dark haired boy laughing. Oh boy- his eyes were just umm how you say- Yummy? The teacher walked in and ruined my gay-stalker moment. 'So I have you in my class Pattie?' he tiredly says

'My name is Patrick. Call me that or call me nothing' I strictly say

'Okay nothing- sit down'

Wow. Nice move me. Better give myself a pat on the back for that! So I sat down across from that boy. I continued my stalker get up until the bell. I followed him to his next class. Damn. That boy has a butt.

Since Shop class some wise-asses thinking they are soooo original would purposly bump into me and say "Sorry Nothing". It was invigurating. And very annoying. Lunch was normal- crappy cafeteria crap served on crappy plastic trays. I looked around for that boy- When I finally spotted him- he was sitting alone. A boy that good looking should have girls crawling all over him.

I finally get pulled out of my trance when I see my man walking over to our table. Brad. Thats right. Im secretly dating Brad. Brads father would never ever approve of him being gay. By now I've told everyone Im gay so I can finally be myself. But Brad isnt so easy going about expressing himself. So we would meet in secret.

I remember at first.. we would hook up at parties. He would be so drunk or high he didnt know that to him this was 'wrong'. Everytime he would have to get drunk- drunker every time. Just to express himself. I wasnt sure if I pitied him. Or if I was hurt by this. Even now Im still not sure.

  He gives Sam a note- like he has said before 'I rather people thinking Im cheating with Sam then with a guy'  Im not quite sure how I feel about that. But Sam passes me the note under the table and nod to her in thanks

      -P

           This Friday at Bobs party, cant wait. See you after the game

                                         -B

His messages are always short and sweet. I dont know what Im expecting- a long love letter from him

Pft thats unlikely. I look back over to the table where that boy was sitting. He's gone. Where has he gone- I glance at the clock. Time for class

Im hoping I'll be seeing him again.

         Sincerly,

                  Patrick