Chandler's POV
I quickly push Clouds off by her shoulders causing her to give me a confused face
"sorry, I uh- ate pizza and it had garlic on it.."
wow, great lie Chandler.. best one by far..
"but, you hate garlic..and did you get a lip piercing?" Clouds runs her thumb over the ring
"yes and yes but I decided to eat it this once..and it's fake"
"looks good on you" Cloud smiles but slowly starts looking away, mumbling something under her breathe.. "you okay?" I ask
"huh? oh yea, just thinking.." Clouds fiddles with her nails. She does that every time she got nervous
"about?" I sit criss cross facing her body
"uh..nothing something stupid that's all..don't worry." Clouds plasters on a fake smile
"you know you can tell me anything, right?" I pick up Cloud's chin making her face me "it's..just Zayn.." My anger boils as I release my fingers from her face
Can't Ed just leave us alone?! For once?!
That boy fucked up my life, I am not letting him fuck her life up, she's my only ray of sunshine I have left in this dark world
"What did he say?" I growl
"Chandler, relax..it was nothing I-" her hand reaches for my arm
"What did he say!!" I yell cutting off Clouds, she flinches at my voice and pulls her hand away
"that I should l-leave you..that your no g-good for me.." Clouds says barely above a whisper
"And what? That he will be better for you! Where was he when you were getting over Brady..getting over Lillian!?" I get up and walk around yelling
"Don't bring her into this! She has no reason being brought up!!" Clouds quickly gets up yelling back at me
"he thinks just cause you guys kissed, your all his!" I throw my hands up in frustration
"I'm not all his! Stop thinking I'll leave you to go with him! And so what if I kissed him? We aren't even together!"
I stop walking and turn to face her, I need to cool down before I do something I really really regret
"You want to know why we aren't even together? Because you don't want to! It's your fault you aren't ready to trust me! God Clouds! You know how much you piss me off?!" I groan
yup, there's the thing I'll regret soon..
"Because of your temper! And I'm sorry if I can't trust some one who broke my heart," Clouds walks to the window "by the way, we are done.. even though we were never together.." she climbs back in side and shuts the window
I yell running my hands through my hair, "god damn it!!"
Cloud's POV
I climb back in and see Sam on his phone and looking up at me, "hey..you okay?"
"y-yeah.." I face Sam with glossy eyes and notice he has a lip and rose ring
"nice rings" I giggle to my self
"uh thanks.." Sam blushes messing with the back of his neck
I sigh looking back at Chandler climbing back into the room "bye Sam.."
I walk out the door before slamming it hard shut, jerk..
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I went to bed early since I had nothing else to do and also meaning I wanted to cry my heart out but that wouldn't do shit..
I changed into a purple tank top and black boy shorts, putting my hair into a high pony tail..
I climb onto the bottom bunk and just stare at the bottom of the top bunk.. I just laid there staring at the bed that was once used by my best friend..
Tears slowly start falling down my cheeks and all you hear in the room are soft sobs
"why did you leave me Lillian? I need you here.." I wiped my tears and slowly closed my eyes
|dreamimg|
I wake up in the back seat of a car, I look around and see Lillian and Sam in the front laughing
"Lillian!" I yell in excitement, but she doesn't hear me..
"your kidding.." Sam looks to his side smiling at my best friend
"nope, I fell on metal escalators.. believe me you don't ever want to do that.. I even have a scar.." she looked at her right knee and smiled
"your so clumsy.." Lillian giggled as she started looking out the window.. it was raining pretty hard
"hey do you think- " she stops
"SAM STOP THE-"
I look at the windshield and see a truck coming to the car, everything moves in slow motion, I look at Lillian and see her scream.. I try to get to her but my hands just go through her.. no, I need to save her..my eyes shut close waiting for the impact
The car flips into a ditch, and once I open my eyes I'm standing outside the broken and crushed car. Lillian's bleeding body just stares at me..I start screaming.. my Lillian.. gone..
A family pulls Sam out as I run to Lillian's side and try pulling her out, but right before I grab her the car explodes, I fall back and cover my eyes of the bright light..
"no. no. no!" I yell.. I see Lillian's mouth form a small smile, her burning hand reaches out to me..she sees me..
"Clouds! wake up!" Lillian screams to me.. I close my eyes and cover my ears.. but her screams just get louder and louder
"stop!! please!!"
"Clouds!! wake up!!"
|dreaming over|
I wake up and just start crying and crying, I look at the clock and see its 4AM.. I crawl off the bed and open my window..
Thank the lord for credit cards and hacking locks
I step out side and the cold air makes me shiver.. I climb to the top and just hug my knees..
I just think of Lillian and her smile and began crying out of frustration and sadness, "it should have been me..it should have been me.." I repeat grabbing the ends of my hair
Should have been me..
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Hey guys I know she chapter was kind of long and all but I can't wait till you guys see what happens
Also I can't believe clouds "broke up" with chandler! Like bitch please, you don't brake up with chan.. chan brakes up with you.... lol I'm weird also I will probably not be updating tomorrow so sorry about that guys but again ... love ya byyyee!!!
