Why?

Why? Chapter Twenty

A/N: Important authors note at the end please read.

Chapter Twenty

“You didn’t bother to inform us of any of this before making so many decisions?” My mom fired at me, her eyes flashing between hurt and anger at me. 

“I didn’t think to! I figured you guys would think it was a good plan, you know, helping me advance and all.” I shot back, narrowing my eyes at her. 

“Of course Carter, you figured, you always just assume everyone will agree with what you choose! Did you even think about school, your parents, brother, Kade?” She questioned, acting as if I hadn’t already thought through these excruciating details. 

“Sorry I’m attempting to live my own life? Of course! I can take my classes online, you guys are pilots, not like you’re home all the time anyway, I talked to Liam, he thinks it’s a good idea too. Kade, I don’t want to talk about that.” I muttered, my anger turning into pain and regret. I took my eyes off of her and looked at the floor, fiddling with the hem of my T-Shirt. In seconds my mom had her hand on my shoulder and she had taken on the motherly concern side. I awkwardly shifted away, not in the mood to break down. 

“Peanut, what happened between you two?” 

“We chose to, you know, not, be together…” I muttered, closing my eyes to stop the downpour. She immediately avoiding comforting words and came in directly for the hug. I wrapped my arms around her as more tears poured out my eyes onto her shoulders now. 

I’ve been doing this too often, this whole crying shit needs to stop. 

“Well, if you honestly think this is a good idea, I’ll support you of course and so will your dad. It’s just going to be different and stressful. You’re sure you want to go through with it?” She picked at my hair attempting to talk me out of it, wasn’t gonna work momma. 

“Yes, I’m sure. I’ve thought through it and I honestly think it’s a great opportunity.” I replied looking at her. She nodded carefully not bothering responding. 

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Dear Stellar Stables,

I’ll be glad to inform you I am accepting your offer. I feel very honored to be offered a spot at your stable it means a lot to me. 

Since I am still in school I will be taking online classes from my school so I will need to have time to keep up my studies of course. 

Also, when will I be arriving, how long will I be staying and what will the schedule be like?

I need these details fairly soon to start scheduling shipment of my horse, flights for myself, and to inform my family and school.

Thank you so much for offering me this.

Sincerely, 

Carter

I read through my email multiple times being sure to have written what I needed. I hovered my mouse over the send button, rethinking it all. My stomach churned as more questions popped into my head. I rotated my mouse over to the Save Draft button and clicked that exiting out of my email. 

If I wanted this spot why couldn’t I actually tell them accepted it. I already broke up with Kade, I’m almost done packing, my family is mentally prepared as can be for me to leave; yet I can get the guts to press send to my acceptance letter. I shouldn’t be questioning this, it’s such a good opportunity I’m being selfish not taking this. It’s stupid I need to send it. 

Pathetic, you’d rather stay for Kade, who may not even be in your future instead of go advance in a career. Stupid teenage girl.

I reached for my laptop again, opened up the email and before I could think twice, pressed send. 

A/N: okay soooo, no this book is not closed to being finished, probably 10+ more chapters, either once I get this version finished (probably over summer holidays) or i feel the need to, i am going to restart this story, it will be the same story but i’ll change some minor details and it will be written more clearly and better, i hope to do this over summer but there is no guarentees. please understand this i am busy and dont have a ton of time to update on here. 

loves, alex