Can I trust you? (Shacam)

Chapter 24

Cammie POV

It's been about two weeks since Shannon and I got back together. Her friend, Jordan, left a couple days ago. I spent just about every night here, I may have been overly jealous that there was another girl staying at her place. She could totally tell, too, and I could tell she liked overprotective Cam. 

We have school tomorrow but I still decide to stay at her place. I've been staying here so much lately that I just got used to sleeping with her by my side, and now I never want that to change. Waking up next to her every morning always put a smile on my face. The only down side was how early she had to get up to get ready. 

"Shannnn," I groaned as she got out of bed, "come back." I gave her a pouty face trying to entice her back into the bed, but she gave me a pouty face right back knowing that we would be late for school if she did. 

I thought about having the talk about living together, but maybe it was too soon. We hadn't even talked about what our plans were for after high school, and graduation was fast approaching. I laid in Shan's bed letting these thoughts overwhelm me. I decided to get up because I didn't want to think about it anymore. I worried about what that topic would dredge up. 

"Babe we're going to be late for school, your hair looks fine." I yelled to Shannon as I made my way up the stairs into her room. 

"How would you know? You can't even see it." She yelled back. 

"I don't have to." I smiled as I rounded the corner to to her bathroom where she stood looking in the mirror. "Come on, let's go."

Everything has been great between us for the past couple weeks. I was afraid that Shan would have some reservations about trusting me again, but she seems to have let it pass. We're on our way to school when Shannon looks over at me and says, "So we haven't talked about our plans for college yet." I sigh. It was like she knew exactly what I was thinking this morning. Regardless of how badly we needed to have this talk, I wasn't ready for it. 

I gave her a sad look, knowing I didn't want to have to say what I was about to. "Well, since I moved here I knew I wanted to go back to Pittsburg for college. I've really known since I was younger." 

She doesn't look at me, she keeps her focus on the road and just nods slowly. "I've been looking between two colleges. I got a scholarship to play basketball in Dallas, but part of me wants to stay around here." I fix my gaze in the direction of the window. Something fell apart inside of me. I knew it was irrational but, deep down, I wished she would have offered to come with me. Maybe that's selfish of me, but I always want to be selfish with her.

"So where does that leave us?" I said, hesitantly. 

She shrugged, trying not to be bothered by it. This was totally something she does when she's anxious. She doesn't want to acknowledge what will happen, so she plays it off even though it's killing her inside. "We have plenty of time to figure it out," she forced a hint of a smile and rested her hand lightly on mine. Even though she was trying to act like it wasn't a big deal, it only made it worse for me because I knew we didn't have much time at all.

Mid-July

"I don't want you to go," she said pleadingly at the driver's side of my car, tears staining her cheeks. I hugged her as tight as I could, never wanting to let go. Our summer together got cut short. My parents finished their jobs here, and planned to move back to Pittsburg anyway, so we just decided to go now instead of waiting until August.

Shannon led me inside her apartment before I had to leave."What's going to happen to us Cammie?" 

She stared into my soul with her glossy eyes. "I don't know, baby." My eyes filled with tears. 

She begged and pleaded at me to stay. "Stay here with me," she said, "We can live here and go to college in LA together." She paused for a moment, but seeing that my decision hadn't changed, she tried another idea, "or I can move to Pittsburg and go to college with you." 

I continued to shake my head as the tears began pouring out harder. "Shan you can't, this is how it has to be." She looked down at me, I had never seen her so broken before. 

"I love you, so much," she whimpered. I buried my head in her chest for one last hug. 

"I love you, too," I sobbed. The hug lasted a while, but not long enough. She pulled me in for a passionate kiss. No words were exchanged. I ended the kiss and headed for the door. I turned to take one last look at her before shutting the door on my past. Her eyes were windows into her broken soul. Then the door shut, I couldn't see her anymore. And I haven't seen her since. 

A/N

Ahhh bet you guys didn't see that coming. 

ps: sorry life's been kicking my ass lately and I have had zero time to do anything. Promise I'll get back on track!!!!